Team 100 update: Lilly (27), Mystery Girl (27), Amy (120), Jen (mommy) (23), Sunflower (14), and J (140). Welcome to new members: Victoria, Terri, DDG, and Grace. There are 26 of us now 🙂
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i had a very very long day on wednesday and have not been able to catch up on my sleep. we Europeans also finally had our spring time change this past weekend, so anyway i’m lacking sleep big time. both yesterday and today I dragged ass — both days required 2 hour naps midday just to get through. I’m sleeping well at night, but waking much too early. Fuck you time change. Fuck you being up at 6:30 am for catering on Wednesday. I’ve been having to go for my runs after 7 pm, which is completely unheard of for me. i’m a first-thing-in-the-morning runner, like to have my goals met early in the day so the rest is a golden rainbow. not so much this week.
so i’m on my run tonight, it’s been a really long day, i’m running way later than i want to be (7:45 pm). i’m planning to stop at a store on the way home to buy stuff for dinner, cuz i don’t have any food left in the house… and then i thought about a nice big bottle of red wine.
WHILE I WAS RUNNING.
so I said to my lovely wolfie, “you’re only thinking about booze because you’re tired.”
and wolfie said “don’t get too hungry, angry, lonely or tired. Because I am waiting for you.”
like for reals. i literally heard the AA mantra in my head. and it was pretty menacing.
i came in from my run, announced to my husband that HE could fucking make dinner for a change. I had a bath with candlelight. i ate my dinner (meat, veg, starch).
i’ve got to say it. this will involve swearing. you can look away now if swearing bothers you.
wolfie, you’re an evil evil pig-fucker. you’re a gigantic anus. imagine. waiting around for poor girls to feel weak or tired or vulnerable. shame on you. wolfie, honestly, i’m writing this message to the universe to let everyone know that i’m ON to you, motherfucker. you will NOT fuck with me. I’m doing my best to work and run and sleep and handle my life, and you will leave me the fuck alone. I’m not kidding. I’ll sick the sobersphere on you, wolfie. you’re no match for the team of friends I have on MY side, wolfie. I maybe have never stood up to you before like I am now, but i am not alone anymore wolfie. it’s not just you and me in a dark room without witnesses. everybody is watching you now wolfie. you’re outnumbered. we know your shit. stay the fuck away from me. i’ve got friends with guns, wolfie.
and yes, i’m going straight to bed.