I probably don’t meet the definition of an alcoholic. No bottom, no disaster, just a slow erosion of quality of life. but there was alcohol consumed in my immediate family, and i have watched the effects closely, all my life. ok, i’m not a textbook alcoholic myself, perhaps, but did the consumption of alcohol negatively […]
Day 40. I am now back to running 5 days a week, which is the level I was at before we moved here to foreign-land. I set out to run 30 minutes today and at about 20 mins I was tired. I know enough to finish the run, and to do what I set out […]
i know there are lots of people reading sober blogs, and there are tons of people who — like me — were reading sober blogs even before they were sober. Personally, I was reading while still drinking because I was looking for ideas and motivation. I wanted to get a sense that it would be […]
I have begun this day with an error. I’ve had two cups of coffee on an empty stomach followed by two pieces of raisin bread toast. And now I feel terrible. Like agitated, over-stimulated, anxious, and high/low at the same time. Yes, I’m reading the Potatoes Not Prozac book, and yes I know better than […]
triggered. and i know there’s an old-timer out there who’s going to give me an ear-full. and i’m ready for it. really, i am. i have a friend who’s been a big drinker. drink till it’s all gone, mix in some drugs, take some sleeping pills. that kind of drinker. He’s been sober for several […]
i think we all WAIT for things to happen. but as drinkers, it gets worse. We wait ’til Monday to start a diet. We wait for the phone to ring. We check our email to see if something interesting is happening OUT there. We wait. As drinkers, somewhere along the line, we give up and […]
the first thought i had this morning was “i don’t have time to be *sober* today, i’ve got too much to do.” Not that i plan to drink, but feeling i don’t have time to delve into the last pages of the Vale book, check on blogs, and comment on my own. But if i’ve […]
Last night, husband and i sitting at opposite ends of the couch, my feet wrapped around his legs. It’s 10 pm and we’re both … wait for it … reading. I’m reading jason vale’s book, and he’s (finally) reading the second stieg larssson book. The big floor-to-ceiling windows are open because it’s summer and a […]
i feel better today. i feel less foggy. i feel less preoccupied. i’ve stopped counting days in my head and have to look at my excel spreadsheet to do the math (day 34). it is sunny. i’m on vacation. my copy of the jason vale book finally arrived yesterday by mail and i’ve started reading […]
When I was trying to quit drinking, i did some unusual things. I’d drink the better part of a bottle of wine while watching downloaded episodes of A&E’s TV show “Intervention” (about drug and alcohol intervention and recovery). And I’d cry. Other nights I’d inhale champagne, compulsively eat peanut butter cookies, and watch “Celebrity Rehab […]