Who would have thought that I’d arrive here. 60 Days today.
When I quit drinking on July 1st, i knew i wanted to be sober for 30 days, but beyond that I knew very little, and i struggled a lot. I didn’t sneak a drink or relapse, but i definitely struggled a lot with my thinking. Thankfully that tumbling of ideas and words and anxiety about “not drinking” has stopped, and not a moment too soon.
I have a reward planned for today, i’m going to buy some fancy hand cream that smells like ginger (that when i used a sample, i kept sniffing my hands for hours).
I had planned to blog every day for the first 60 days as a way of holding myself accountable. Mission accomplished : ) I’ll probably still blog lots, just not daily. We’re heading on vacation this weekend (finally) and i won’t be writing then.
As well, starting September 1st, i’m adding a new layer to this recovery journey, and i’m tackling a project that has been on my to-do list for 18 months.
I’ve been looking ahead to September and part of me is quite happy to be getting back into my regular routine. I like autumn, the cooler temperatures, the ‘new beginnings’. The leaves don’t change colors here like they do at home. They just turn brown and fall down all at once in a big wind. Lots are down already. But before I get too day-dreamy about September, first there’s the BEACH vacation, starting on FRIDAY, that’s 2 more sleeps! i do love vacations (when my husband is off work at the same time as me).
In closing, I wanted to share with you some of the best (and worst) search engine terms that have brought people to my blog over the last 6o days. How fun!
- does your metabolism change if you stop drinking wine
- why sabotage a spouse’s sobriety
- why can’t i sleep well after drinking red wine
- swarming thoughts of you
- ode to red wine
- wouldn’t say shit if he had a mouthful
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- big anuses
- chinese chocolate swiss roll
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- 60 days without a drink and i am resentful and want a drink
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- belle’s tired of drinking blog
And YES … the answer to the question is YES. Yes, I will be sober after today. I will continue to not-drink, even if I don’t blog every day.