email from P (yesterday): “Shit. Reset me. Today is day 1 again. I’m glad that I made this decision to take Antabuse, but I’m also kind of disappointed that I can’t deal with Wolfie the way you did it. I’m sure that you felt a tremendous amount of empowerment that I just don’t feel right now. But that plan hasn’t worked for me lately. And I’m sure that as the sober days continue, I’ll rely more on my good decisions than the negative consequences of some drug that I’m on. I just have to be patient with myself and my own journey.”
my reply (yesterday): I can reset you. antabuse is a great medication. you can take it for a full year. and then get away from day 1 and feel way better.
wollfie will suggest that you compare your sobriety to mine or someone else’s.
the empowerment part comes in being sober, not in the HOW you’re sober. that confusion is definitely wolfie.
that’d be like saying “you must like your children better when you do natural childbirth in a cave alone instead of in a hospital with appropriate medication…”
that’d be like saying “you must like your marathon better because you did it crawling instead of walking.”
doesn’t matter HOW we do the things.
that’d be like saying “you must like your law degree more because you did it in 4 years instead of 5.”
bullshit 🙂 don’t let wolfie walk around in there with that kind of nonsense.
the goal is to be SOBER.
the HOW is irrelevant and trivial.
the goal is to be sober 🙂
hugs xo
