new things

I don’t know how to say this so you can hear me:
It’s not just about starting again on Day 1.
It’s not just about saying “today is my new Day 1.”
It’s about changing something.

Because if what you’ve been doing up to now isn’t working.
then you need to do something different.
It’s not just ‘try harder’ —
it’s ‘try different’.

If you email me and say
‘today’s my new Day 1’
I’m going to thunk you
and say
what are you changing?

Because you don’t want to hang around Day 1 anymore.
And you want things to be different,
and you’re emailing a sober coach,
so you want her opinion.
(Because if you didn’t,
you’d just not tell me.)

So when you tell me
“I’m on Day 1”
it would be incredibly bad form
(and not fair)
if I support you having a new Day 1
without changing anything.
That wouldn’t be fair to you.
It would probably be irresponsible on my part, too.

Because this booze thing can get worse and worse
and we don’t want that to be you.
And we don’t want that to happen to you.

It’s not just having a new Day 1 …
having a new Day 1 is fabulous,
don’t get me wrong 🙂
You do need a new Day 1.
AND you need to add some new things
because what you’ve been doing up to now
hasn’t been enough
and you want to move away from here
so you’re going to do some new things now.




mr. belle was out putting envelopes into mailboxes (we distribute them over several, as the boxes are tiny, so it means walking for a while).
he got home,
and i said to him
“another painting sold today to JenJen on her day 100”
and he said
“that’s great.
do you want spaghetti for dinner?”
and i do. and he’s cooking.
then i went off to the balcony to take the photo for #468,
upload and crop, save,
make up the gumroad button, and post it.

special edition flag painting

go here >

~ hugs from me (and him)



I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012