Never Happen

OMM087 > Never Happen

You may hear this in your head:
“I don’t have a problem like those other people.”
That’s part of what our brain does.
It says:
“I’m not as bad as them.
I’m different from them.
She does this, where I do that.”
When the reality is —
and you know what I’m going to say, right? you know me … .
— the reality is that it doesn’t matter how much you drink.
What matters is how it makes you feel.
How you think about it all the time.
How you wish you drank less.
How you wish you never thought about drinking.
Gee, I named by blog
Tired of Thinking About Drinking
for a reason.
I wanted the thinking about drinking to stop.
And it turns out the way to get that to happen
is to not have any.
So when your brain acts up with the idea of
“I’m not as bad as her,
that thing happened to him, it didn’t happen to me,”
you’re supposed to add the word
“That hasn’t happened to me
I haven’t had those repercussions
And if I stop drinking now
They will never happen.”



new painting posted, with at least one exit sign (in case you need good visual reminders)

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I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012