from my inbox:
W: “As soon as I started looking at quitting drinking like ending a toxic relationship, all of a sudden I was back in familiar territory (um, yay?) and had a whole arsenal of tools to use (yes, yay!).
- Yes, there is good between us. But it will always be outweighed by the bad.
- Yes, we have history. But what we have is no longer healthy, so I am choosing a different future.
- Yes, for a long time I turned to you as my safety blanket. But that “safety” kept me down, and kept me from growing. I need to grow more than I need that safety blanket.
- Yes, you want to go back to the good old times when everything felt ok. But you are a one-trick pony, and I am not. You will never change; I must change.
- Yes, you want us to keep trying. But I cannot live this life, or lie to myself, any more. I refuse to stay miserable just to keep you happy. So I am leaving.
- Yes, you will call, and text, and write, and cry, and plead, and threaten, and sulk. And I may have compassion, as for a scared 2 year old, but I will still say nope, no, nuh-uh, not happening, buh-bye, go away, too bad.
- You’ll be ok on your own, Wolfie. You don’t need me any more.
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” -Anais Nin
Day onehundredfreakinfortyseven!! 😀
(I never, never, never in my wildest dreams, when I was down in that tar pit, ever imagined I’d actually get here. I feel like a swamp leech that woke up one day as a hummingbird…kinda like WT holy F WOW how’d that happen?!!!) (thank you 🙂 )”
NEW – Where are they now?
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