made me stop being angry

memphis. very very warm (31C). a little rough around the edges (the city and us). a dumpy rental apt which we tried to back out of and have now made coffee and settled in.

 

from my inbox:

email from Mari: “After listening to this audio [lesson 1]  I realize that I am so angry all the time. Angry that I had to listen to this audio.  So pissed that I can’t drink, pissed when I do drink, especially the next day. I remain in a state of constant anger, gives me a reason to get up in the morning and go about all my tasks, but always pissed about it all, having to live, having to do things i don’t want to do. This rage keeps me from feeling, keeps me from doing anything about my unhappy life.

When you said to close my eyes and listen, telling me I am not broken, that made me feel so much better, made me stop being so angry, made me think maybe she’s right, maybe there is hope for me.

I feel so relieved right now, like the pressure is off me, maybe i don’t have to be in a rage all the time.  Maybe………..”

Question: Do you have anger or is it (maybe) fear? how closely linked are anger and fear, do you think?


NEW PAINTING POSTED

​This painting was selected to go to the Tennessee Art Show in Knoxville Tennessee (May 9-11, 2019) … 🙂

It’s now available on the site.

link > www.artsober.com

Belle

I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012