time to change some shit

email from capt e (day 59):  
“I was talking to my karate instructor last night, told her I was having trouble getting the moves in the next kata I am learning, she said why are you trying to learn a new kata, you need to master the one before, it’s not about how many katas you know.  Stop, don’t do anything new, just practice, practice, practice your other katas until they are automatic, then learn just a small bit of the next kata and practice that.
Hmmmm. What does that sound like? I feel like the whole universe is giving me the same [sober] advice: Don’t do too much. Practice what you know so far, the things that are working, until they are automatic, then take on only small bits of new things.
Thank you Belle, domo arigato Shee-han, thank you Universe.”




I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • Thanks capt e – excellent advice. just practice practice practice – don’t do anything new. I just thought about trying to lose a few pounds (I’m around day 80 or so now) and Elise (sober penpal apprentice with Belle) suggested waiting a bit longer – because as she said, the longer I’m sober, the less my head screams for booze.
    Thank you Belle, thank you Elise, thank you capt e. I see how this all fits in = keep practicing until it is automatic, then start the next challenge. I don’t think I’m at the automatic part of being sober yet, feeling much better, but should probably nail this part first before tackling weight loss or anything else.