It’s not because of summer

Yesterday i posted a clip from a recent podcast (SP249). Here is some of the transcript.


Every time you do something sober, you build resilience. You build a knowledge that you can get through it. You develop tools and supports, and you have a pattern of behaviour that gets you through things. So summer is not particularly difficult. It is not more difficult than winter. It is not more difficult than a snowstorm. It’s not more difficult than dealing with in-laws. It’s not more difficult than a sick kid.

Your head will tell you that it is, and your head will tell you that this is a unique experience that requires alcohol. But you can hear that, right? That’s wolfie. That’s not you.

Because it’s not true.

The people who tell me that summer is a trigger are the same people who tell me that a snowstorm is a trigger, that going to Egypt is a trigger, that going to the next town is a trigger, that driving downtown after supper is a trigger, that staying at home is a trigger.

That you have a brain that periodically thinks that drinking is a good idea, would be normal, but don’t get too hung up on the specifics of what your brain is saying is the reason.

It’s not summer.

It’s not because of summer.


I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • I am so fed up, pissed off and cheesed off because I just can’t get started. I just think of an excuse every time. I’m beginning to think there is something wrong with me because it’s always 330pm ish when my mind starts to think of maybe having wine tonight. The excuses are ridiculous – it’s saturday so start on Sunday or it’s an odd number day so start on an even number day instead or right last time for wine today then start big time tomorrow. I have so many reasons why I want to stop and why I need to stop but just can’t do it. Xx

    • you may find that you do better with more support. if what you’re trying isn’t quite enough, then you add in some accountability which can help with the ‘but it’s 5 pm’ argument …