every minute feels like forever

from me:
a couple of days ago, i invited you to send me an email if you’d never emailed before, or never posted a comment on my blog. i specifically wanted to invite lurkers, silent-readers, keep-to-yourself types, and non-reaching-out-ers to … well, to reach out.  I said i’d pick two emails, and would send personalized audio replies from me. Here’s one of the messages i replied to:

Lis: “Belle, I’m one of those “lurkers”… I’m 16 days sober and was sitting in my office crying when your email arrived. My longest period of sobriety was 76 days — this past summer and every minute of it felt like forever. I love lemon meringue pie…”

>> listen to my audio reply here <<

My goal for 2017 is to send out 500 copies of my book to sympathetic doctors
, helpful therapists, open-minded social workers, and kind psychiatrists. I’d like to share this idea of support for quitting drinking (for ‘high bottom’ drinkers/for those of us who don’t go to AA). I know that most doctors don’t know anything about us. They don’t know what to say when we admit we’re over-drinking, and they don’t know what resources are available outside of AA or rehab. So I want to send 500 copies of my book out to people who help others.


I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • Very timely audio. Every day one for me came from a terrible morning after an equally terrible night before. I disappointed someone, I fought with my husband, I wasn’t able to be there for someone who really needed me or I just woke up feeling like pure shit! Every one of those reasons were never enough to me to keep me sober. What is working this time is constantly stopping to recharge my battery….the lovely tulips I bought on a gloomy winter day, a cup of lemon zinger tea with honey when Wolfie told me a sip of scotch would certainly soothe my cough, taking my dog for a long walk. These are just a few of my chargers and thanks to them I am sitting here watching my 6 month old gransdon finally get a good nap. The poor little guy has a double ear infection on top of getting a new tooth and I am able to give him all the attention he needs because I’m not nursing a hangover. My daughter can go work without a worry because Gram can be there! Sobriety seriously rocks!