Audio: Learn it Now (episode sp142)

I recently recorded Sober Podcast Episode #142 for my longer, weekly sober podcast series. You’re familiar with the one-minute audios. These are longer, meatier.

In this episode I talk about … what does relapse mean? What does it feel like to relapse after a long period of time sober?

We always focus on the “she was sober for 13 years and then drank” part. and we think that’s the bad part of the story.

when really, imagine how it feels to re-start being sober knowing that it’s not as bright and sparkly as it was before (at least, not to begin).

So you might as well learn it now. whatever it is. and you can scoop out everything you can. This audio mentions cantaloupe, kiwis, and ice cream.


Unwinedgal (day 317): “Fear of regret is a huge motivator in my recovery tool box. You are sooooo right that there was no sparkle after quitting drinking the second time around  — which is this time for me — at least at first. I remember trudging through and having to just white knuckle a little bit because I had already read a lot of books, podcasts, blogs the first time. I knew the drill. It wasn’t like I was absorbing this new, novel information like the first time. I now had to accept it instead of just learn it. I needed way more accountability and that is when I reached out to you 🙂     I really don’t want to go through those early days again … reminding myself that I don’t want to go back there, and really, even more than that, that there is nothing to go back to, keeps me safe and sober…”

Amara (day 47): “I love this podcast. You make me laugh, and at the same time you get right into my brain and under my skin. It’s raw and honest, and I really need that. I think many of us do. Thank you, Belle. xox, Amara”

The full audio for this episode is 13 minutes long. Here’s a 1.5 minute preview:


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I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • I also really loved this podcast. It really got through to me that drinking only postpones coping with whatever the problem is…whatever it is we’re trying to escape from. It doesn’t make it *go away*, which is what we think it does. Once we get around to coping with the problem, it’s usually even worse, so we drink more. Seeing it that way helped me understand how easily things can spin out of control.

    Thanks for all you do, Belle!