I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012
Yeah…. Day 50, again 🙂 God I hate Wolfie. How many times do I need to make 50 days, 100 days and think I am smarter than he is only to have him drag me down again – its so frustrating and embarrassing. But on the bright side I think I have finally figured out what was sending me over the edge. It was the forever thing – I still haven’t wrapped my head around the whole forever thing but I do know I am so much better sober so why would I want to face the guilt and shame of having ANOTHER Day 1. I am at Day 55 and I feel like this could be the one. Thanks for always being here Belle and for all your encouraging words. You really do make a difference in my life. xoxo – Suzan 🙂
Thank you Belle!
Yeah…. Day 50, again 🙂 God I hate Wolfie. How many times do I need to make 50 days, 100 days and think I am smarter than he is only to have him drag me down again – its so frustrating and embarrassing. But on the bright side I think I have finally figured out what was sending me over the edge. It was the forever thing – I still haven’t wrapped my head around the whole forever thing but I do know I am so much better sober so why would I want to face the guilt and shame of having ANOTHER Day 1. I am at Day 55 and I feel like this could be the one. Thanks for always being here Belle and for all your encouraging words. You really do make a difference in my life. xoxo – Suzan 🙂
Suzan… and hearing about your celebration of Day 55 is inspiring to me at Day 2. Yeah for you!!
Yippeeee! Congrats to all xxxx