sometimes a struggle, but worthwhile

Thus begins my mostly-unplugged August. I wrote about it here. The summary is that on weekdays i’m working just one hour per day for Job #1, doing no big catering jobs (job #3), and i’m turning off the computer by 8 pm. On weekends, no computer from noon to bedtime except for an hour around supper time. Make a point of going somewhere every day. Use new metro pass at least once a day (i.e. go somewhere outside my immediate neighbourhood).

So today is day one, I am already realizing a few things. Sobriety parallels anyone?

  • it’s going to take a few days to get used to this (probably 7-9 days where I think – this isn’t worth it, why bother)
  • some moments it’ll seem like i should just turn on the internet so i can zone out (but i won’t, i want to have a successful month with no slips)
  • i’m going to be bored when i remove the computer. i need to make a list of things to do (when bored: have a bath, read, go to bed, go for a walk, cook something, eat something, clean something, sing something, draw/paint/photograph something). same rules apply for when you’re bored with sobriety…
  • write a lot – get my ideas out of my head. this means writing off-line (horrors) on a yellow lined pad with the right pen. or the wrong pen.
  • run a lot – at least 10-15 minutes a day, 5 days a week. i like myself more when i run 🙂 i’m nicer to myself on the days that i run. nuff said.
  • it will not all ‘get done’ but i’ll be unplugged (sober). that might the only thing i achieve this month, and that’ll still be good enough.
  • note to me that i’ve been waiting to do this for a long time (i did it last year and while it was, at times, a struggle, i really enjoyed it and remember it fondly). Having more undistracted time is an adventure. i don’t know how i’m going to feel every day. but i’ve literally been waiting 11 months for this day to come, and now it’s here, and i’m excited and nervous and … tired. I’m ready for a change for the better. You?

–> i will be online checking emails every day. i just might be a bit slower responding than normal, but i’m reading everything and I am still physically here (i.e. not travelling). you’re not bothering me. should i say it again? keep emailing. you’re not bothering me.


Happy Day 50 to SL!

Happy Day 50 to ejen!

Happy Day 100 to Jewels!

Happy Day 180 to Andrea!

Happy Day 200 to Shawn!

Happy Day 200 to Anna-Lisa!

Happy Day 200 to Kzee!



I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • Hi Belle! I took some time away from phone and computer while on vacation and loved it! Had some pangs of wanting to drink while on vacation … Because that’s what you do when on vacation…or I used to do. Everyone else still drinks. So I went for a bike ride…walked on the beach, watched sunset, played cards, read kindle and ate ice cream…oh and slept a whole lot (Belle ‘s go to plan:))
    It’s good to be home and catching up with your blog!