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shit happened in the past
both TO us and BY us
and then
we turn and face
forward
~ shit belle says

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Belle

I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • Yup, That about sums it up! I think someone else before me said it best, “…and it continues to happen, I can just deal with it now!” I love it. It is a good feeling to be sober, and be able to cope with life again! Thanks for the reminder:)

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  • Thanks Belle and applause to everyone who is on the Red List – it’s long! I imagine myself on it but I’m in Day 2 again . . but trying not to look at it as Day 2 again, just no longer in constant Day 0! Trying to get some sober momentum.

    I appreciated the Support video. I’m at work. It’s a really hard, detail oriented, tedious headache of a day but I love my job. Also, I didn’t drink last night which is good b/c it would be a lot harder.

    I was in the middle of feeling a craving – the” can’t wait to get off work and have a drink/smoke” tweak. So, I decided to take a break from work watch some videos and listen to some of Belle’s voice and EAT for god’s sake . . . a little walk about the building.

    I listened to the Regrets sample: When I think about the people I know who are drinking and their lives seem better b/c they have been in the same job for 20 years, I say to myself, they do the same damn thing every year! Every week! Sure she is married, nice guy. But, they don’t do anything new. Meanwhile, I got a PhD., a contract gig, so I did manage to creep forward while getting drunk too often b/c getting that degree was so hard and isolating. So yeah, you can’t compare.

    I still feel tweaky but better, but I am taking your advice! Reaching out.
    Trying damn it. I am trying. Hoping this passes.

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    • It WILL pass, -L. I had what felt like a million, horrible day ones before I got to this point (I think I must be around day 70 or 80 now??? I decided for me it was better not to count as I found it pressured me, and I decided to take a more holistic view) – and now I find myself thinking weird things like ‘wow I really love not drinking!!’ With actual genuine truth. Hang in there – and stick with Belle – and it really does get better, and worth it. Also, all the day zeros and ones, while they don’t feel like it at the time, are part of the process too, so be kind to yourself. Self love lies at the core of all of this. Xo

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