Audio: Here’s What I need From You

Earlier today I recorded episode #45 for my audio podcast subscription thingy.

In this podcast I do something weird and quite hard. I try to explain boozing and being sober to someone who doesn’t get it.

Like, imagine you have a husband, a wife, a girlfriend and they’re not sure what’s up with you.

This audio is sort of an explanation of what it’s like to be a drinker who’s now sober… but also tells our partner what they can do to help us.

“Honey, can you offer me my replacement drink every night at 6:30 pm” as well as “Honey, you being a jerk or mean to me makes it much worse. And I’m doing the best I can, even though you don’t really understand.”

This audio was hard to record. This is tough stuff. It’s also long.

This is a 3.5 minute extract (the full audio runs about 20 minutes).

The audio begins right when i’m explaining to the ‘husband’ about high and low bottoms, and about how some of us quit drinking even when you don’t think we need to … Click below to listen:

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Belle

I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • Love this and will share with my hubby tonight. He is supportive of me quitting drinking, but he doesn’t know the Wolfie voice, so it’s hard for him to fully understand how easily I can become overwhelmed (frequently my own doing by taking on too much, running myself down and forgetting to eat regularly (VERY important for me), drinking enough water, or not getting enough sleep).

    I’ve experienced his anger over my drinking and broken promises that “last night was the last time”, and, you’re right, Belle: It just made me defiant or say “fuck it” and drink again. Basically, this has long ago become boring!!!!!!

    So, as I start Day 1 again after 33 days, I’m dedicating myself to sobriety even further by taking part in next week’s Sober Jumpstart class, and participating in the posts regularly, which I wasn’t doing much of in the first 30 days.

    I love the feeling of being sober; it’s just really the best feeling ever even on shitty days.

    Thank you everyone for being here and sharing your struggles and successes–both are insightful and meaningful to me and lets me know that I am not the only one in the world who has struggled with permanently severing ties with alcohol.