ticker for today

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Ticker for today:


1
day left to enter your photo / art for the the Animal photography assignment, due tomorrow Wednesday


1010
people signed up to do the 100 Day Sober Challenge


7
small chocolate mousse souffle things in the oven right now


4
Not Today bracelets speeding their way to me as i type


0
number of kilometres run today
(so far! FFF, may i add “yet”!)


3
cups of decaf coffee consumed (no more!)


5
number of guests for private catered dinner tonight


55
number of times yesterday’s audio has been listened to


248
great quotes, emails, and bits i have saved for
future blog posts & micro-emails


4
pictures from 600 cupcake-o-rama + big cake, sent by the happy client (worry = worthwhile in this case). here’s one of the pictures (they added the blur!):

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Belle

I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • I’m posting here because it’s safe. Thanks for the sober community. Day 1. Have to make it through the workday, there are layoffs happening soon and I need this job to maintain financial independence. I’ve already leaned hard on my family. Feeling selfish, miserable and scared. And heartbroken. I know a lot of you have been there. Drinking out of control sucks, kudos to all of us who are leaving it behind. Us, because I can’t handle this anymore. Here’s to 100!

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    • Things work out best when we take care of ourselves, keep doing your job the best you can to be viewed as a valuable employee. if things don’t work out for you then you will be able to handle this. You are a strong woman. And think of all of the money that you are saving by not drinking! thinking of you today.
      bizi

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    • my heart is pretty good with the new medication IF I get enough sleep *and* do my catering work in advance. the medication seems to work so long as I’m not exhausted or super stressed. so I’m working on that. last week I had 4 symptom free days (and then I got lost in cake-o-rama especially icing the big cake really stressed me out). this week, I’m at 2 days symptom free (monday/tuesday so far)…

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      • Well, You will have to figure this out.
        Let your doctor know what is happening.
        You might want to keep a journal about it.
        (((((HUGS))))))
        bizi