cup-cake-o-rama is finished. just have to ice the big cake tomorrow morning. nearly nearly done. le phew. icing is made and coloured, first 2 layers of white icing are on the cake. just gotta do the roses with the pink and yellow icing tomorrow after it’s set a bit. i know. pink and yellow roses? but really. it’s a spring-time theme. le whatever.
i have learned some shit about sobriety this week while doing this catering job. i’ll try to put it into a podcast tomorrow (provided all goes well with the roses!). i’ve learned about having the right tools (!), about preparation (!), and about overwhelm. Yeah. Really. And the benefits of having routines that support you. If you have something that’s working, keep doing it. Rinse, Lather, Repeat.
and once you do something hard, you realize (if you’re me) that you thought it would take 6 hrs and it took 2 hrs. You think in advance that it’s going to be impossible and stressful and hateful, and instead it’s sunny and cloudy and bright and weird and then it’s sunny again, and then it’s done.
You think you’re never going to do anything as hard as this again, and then when you’re through the worst of it, you can look back and say “i imagine it will be terrible because i am always looking too far ahead. If i keep my focus on what I need to do next, and only that, then it’s all possible. enjoyable even. manageable.”
Overwhelm comes from looking ahead. Stay Here. Just do today. The next right thing. What can you do next to support you?
Me? i’m getting into the tub (8 pm) with some frozen eclairs. with my cedar bubble bath.