From my inbox:
Rlynn (day 86): “I don’t know why I am judging myself today … I found myself googling celebrities that quit drinking and saw a pattern that most people pull it together in their 20s. And I am going to be 42 in a couple weeks. I wish I could say I didn’t waste a couple decades but I did. Sigh.”
me: you’re so hilariously hard on yourself. I think you should compile the list of addicts and alcoholics who died at any age who DIDN’T get their shit together, ever. 🙂 Therefore, you’re doing *better* than every single person who doesn’t try… statistics can show anything. Let’s make them show something positive.
Rlynn: “You are right. Maybe shoulda coulda woulda or shoulding all over yourself can be a chapter in your book. When I was pregnant, I loved the *what to expect when you’re expecting* books — I never freaked out when all the weird pregnant things happened because the book warned me. Wouldn’t it be nice to have a what to expect when you are sober guide? Not just a guide but a lookout for these mind fucks … then you wouldn’t have to think your stinking thinking was just unique to you and you just just shrug and have another cookie when the thoughts came!
me: cookies …