I’m drawn to staying up too late (audio)

i am so in love with my hand-held recording thing. I’ve had it for a long time, tucked away in a drawer, but just realized i could use it for the podcasts (duh!).

so in my excitement, i’ve recorded a new podcast this morning… about compulsive behaviour. (Thanks to an email from D. asking about weight loss, compulsive overeating, teenage dieting issues, and drinking…).

I talk about how we’re ‘drawn to’ doing things that don’t serve us. Even though we know there will be consequences.

On the list of behaviours: overeating, hair pulling, staying up too late, video games, gambling, oh and drinking (duh!). and eating chocolate chip cookies when we’re not hungry.The full audio for the podcast is (gasp) 19 minutes long.  Here’s a 2.5 minute extract.

The clip begins when I’m talking about examples of compulsive behaviour … and one of mine is staying up too late.


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I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • OMG! Belle you nailed this one! I am sooooo compulsive with my behaviors such as staying up past a reasonable bedtime in spite of the fact that tomorrow will suck! I compulsively watch too much TV in spite of the fact that there are soooo many other things I could be doing! No, I don’t compulsively handwash either. But why can’t I get the compulsively cleans her apartment habit!!!

    • hi there, i’ve received your comment. questions like this might be better directed to me by email (tiredofdrinking@gmail.com). my short answer to your question would be that i was able to stop because i was not physically addicted (only emotionally attached) to booze. there’s a continuum of use and abuse. some people need rehab (i didn’t), some people need lots of support (i thankfully was able to quit with the support of online bloggers). everyone can quit, but we all need different levels of support.
      and personally i *HATE* articles like this one about PSH because they just freak everyone out. and all a boozer needs is to read this and think “fuck-it, might as well drink…”
      belle xo

  • thank you belle, I find I too substitute one thing for the other, like reading and blogging and chatting on soberistas so much that I am ignoring my paperwork. But hey I still am not drinking!

  • Not talking statistics or scientific data here but it seems genetics must play a factor in compulsion. On my father’s IRISH side of the family, there are relatives who: pulled eyelashes out, neat freaks, schizophrenic, autistic, lots of alcoholics, etc, etc.

  • Oh lord, do I love to stay up late. I hear you here. Getting sober makes me look at so many other areas of my life. Too true. Thanks for sharing the podcast clip. Glad you’re making use of something you already had with the voice recorder. Love it when that happens 🙂

    • hi there apprentice : ) thanks for dropping by! my recording thing is, in fact, a portable Flip video camera, but of course it records audio AND video. i never thought to use it just for audio. it was a duh moment when i realized it had an omnidirectional microphone built in, so it gets great sound capture … duh. it’s been in my drawer for 2 years…