*not* the goddess of sobriety …

FitFatFood: I sometimes think you are the Goddess of Sobriety and that you woke up one day and decided not to drink again, then I remember you basically hibernated for 6 weeks and went to bed at 8:30 pm sometimes and that you still sometimes think “This would be a good time for wine.” Comparison gets us nowhere. But what’s been valuable for me is realising that whilst all the support in the world is great, it’s me and only me who can do this, and it’s not about drinking at all really, it’s about me listening to myself and looking after myself. Simple as that.”

and to that, may i say that i was in bed at 8:45 pm last night. adrenal fatigue! it had been such a stressful 24 hrs that i literally couldn’t keep my eyes open, was asleep by 9 pm and slept until 8:15 am this morning when my sous chef arrived… I feel i will again be in bed very very soon. I have a full inbox today (sorry!) and will be back to normal tomorrow 🙂 Taking care of me apparently means SLEEP + lemon bars. Note to self: Keep extra lemon bars in the freezer for ’emergencies’


I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • It’s a really good night to be reminded that this isn’t easy for everyone! I’m 3 bags of gummy bears and a pint of ice cream into the night and Wolfie is still screaming. Time to go to bed and try again tomorrow 🙂

    • One must take care of them selves first before they can take care of anyone else. Glad to hear you are doing just that. I wish I would taken that advise long ago. I would of been a much better mother and wife earlier on. The good thing about life is the opportunity for second chances. I am looking forward to mine.

  • Comparison does get us nowhere; it certainly did me. In the rooms I always compared my bottom to others and as a consequence went back out as they say. I couldn’t possibly be an alcoholic compared to those guys. Reading this blog and others I’ve come to realize that it’s not the quantity that I consumed but the amount of time and energy I gave over to thinking about drinking. It was taking time away from all of the activities that really fed my soul; like woodworking and singing and exercise. I’m very glad that I found this blog. It fits to a T what I had come to dread; thinking about drinking.