thanks everyone for your well-wishes and for your patience as i catch up on emails. i’m nearly there! i’m also feeling really good today, mostly still in shock that i’m feeling so well so quickly. turns out my sister has the same thing with her heart electricity but in a lesser stage (she’s younger), but since we’re not in regular communication she didn’t know my situation until i went into the hospital on thursday. it might be a way of us connecting again, and for that i’d be happier than happy.
today i’m going to turn off the computer, make banana muffins, finish my book (The Interestings by Meg Wolitzer – one of the top 5 books i’ve read this year, thanks to KC for the recommendation). i’m going to do a load of laundry. and i might cook dinner for the first time in weeks. or maybe not 🙂
i’m behind in posting team 100 celebration dates, but i haven’t forgotten you. i’ll post again tomorrow.
Got this question from Old_Dude29 (day 22): “Please tell me that vacationing will be fun if I am sober. Right now, I have no interest in going anywhere. A trip to Hawaii even sounds boring (not currently planning one). It’s hard for me to see into the future as a sober person. Some thoughts on that would be a wonderful exchange.”
and here’s my answer:
it’s hard to see anything in the first 30 days. you’re really going to feel preoccupied with being sober. people often complain that they’re tired of thinking about NOT drinking, and i say yes that goes away on its own after about 30-60 days, once you’ve got all your tools in place and you begin to feel more secure. for me it was 60 days. being sober is kind of overwhelming in that booze affected our WHOLE LIVES, so it takes a while to disassemble and reassemble.
sober vacations are really amazing gifts. you don’t lose three hours in the afternoon to ‘naps’ from overdrinking at lunch. you have less jet lag (cuz you drink water when flying instead of booze). you sleep better on vacation, you spend less money, and you feel fucking proud of your rockstar self. You are more present, enjoy the scenery and the food more, and are more content.
that you can’t imagine yet a sober vacation doesn’t mean anything.
it just means you’re not there yet 🙂 each day you experience as a sober dude adds more experiences to your memory bank, and after a while you really will realize that sober anything is better. sober ice cream is better (no guilt calories). sober reading is better (you can remember the last 10 pages!). sober laughs are hilarious. sober online shopping is better (fewer random purchases). and sober vacations are better (beach, sand, orange shortbread cookies, a camel or two, or a wave or two, or a mountain or two).
that you can’t imagine it yet is fine. as the Jamaicans say, “soon come.”