From my inbox:
K: “thank you thank you thank you for being so so so kind to me! i have been sobbing all day long. last night was nothing special, i am just so sick of the way my life is going! a lot of days i feel this numbness, but today? fresh, hot, searing, unreal pain. i can NOT live like this, i don’t want to live like this. i can definitely quit four days, and thank you for the suggestion. i like the idea of reprogramming my brain. (i am willing to try anything.) you will definitely be hearing lots from me. thank you for helping me.”
me: “I guess the solution would be to change your thinking, which I realize is easier said than done. it would be to picture the bar across the street from your apartment as being full of illness, full of sadness, full of wasted money. It’s dark, it probably smells bad. Maybe you can begin to reprogram your brain to see the bar for what it really is. A trap. And instead, look around and choose Beauty instead. A walk, a bath, a run, a book, the beach, your camera, all things to reach for… And make a pledge to do 4 days. Then at the end of 4 days, you can renew for another 4 🙂 you can email me morning and night until you’re done the first 4 days 🙂 well… wonder how that sounds? 🙂
Note: K is still out there. I hope she’s doing OK. I get emails like this all the time. Then i get magical follow-up emails sometimes months later that say “sober, sign me up for the challenge.”
58 days until Christmas Eve.
305 members in Team 100. Yes really, we broke 300!
10 Fuck You Wolfie Bracelets are on their way to me this week.
3 Stay Here Bracelets left in the October batch, in my drawer, ready to mail right now.
7 spots open in the new session of the Sober Jumpstart class which begins tomorrow.
9.5 hrs sleep for me friday and saturday night, yippee yahoo
57 days until we leave for our next vacation, we’re going to Strasbourg (sort of the german part of france where apparently they have a wicked nice christmas market)