still feeling pretty tired. the first 2 days after the wedding catering, i felt like i had jetlag. like i was in a foreign country, awake when i should be asleep, not even sure what day it was.
monday i went back to work. tuesday i went for a run and was tired of all of the leftover food in my fridge. today i’m back to catering again for 2 days. this weekend we have another smaller event for 40 guests.
i must say that i’m super very grateful that i have a longer period of sobriety under my belt. cuz this kind of catering-induced fatigue, overwhelm, and ‘when will it ever end’ feeling i’m having about food preparation seems endless. I know i often feel like this mid-way through something large. I start to say negative things to myself like “this sucks, i’m never doing this again, i’m quitting right after this job.”
interesting, i never quit in the middle of the job. i know enough to finish before i can contemplate quitting. i seem to be capable of plugging through shitty bits, knowing that later i’ll feel better about everything.
i don’t know when i figured this out, this ability to delay making decisions while feeling shitty.
while feeling shitty, i just keep going. then of course, when it’s over, i say “whoa that was a lot of work, let’s have a vacation. what’s next?”
speaking of which. vacation. london. sunday october 13th. who wants to meet up for tea and cake?
You’re coming to my home city! Yes please to tea and cake. And my first time of meeting recovery peeps in real life. Would be awesome to do it.
I wish I could join you in London -it’s around my birthday time! So much to catch up on, but I am still getting my act together to come back here. All is well – great, in fact, and I am coming back soon to blogging world once again!!
I used to cater, and I know that bone-drenching tired feeling of ‘why did I take this on’? or whatever made me thing I’d want to do this?? I feel for you – but now, vaca!
I’d love it!
That is an excellent thing to work on (delaying decisions while feeling shitty, that is). I am trying my hand at it. I HAVE quit things in the middle before, and it never feels very good.
Yay for vacation getting closer, and London sounds lovely.
Delaying decisions while feeling shitty–yet another good idea to keep in mind.
It’s a date. Sooo exciting!