“not counting down the minutes until I can go home and have another drink”

from my inbox:

Allie (day 55): “Thanks for yesterday’s audio. It was an excellent start to my BIRTHDAY 🙂 This time last year, I was just waking up, hungover as hell after ” celebrating” with “friends”. Yuck. Fucking miserable. Not this year. Yay. How awesome is that? Way more excited to be alive in this life. It’s still not easy but I feel like progress is being made every day: 🙂 Thanks again!”

Sober Senior Lady (29): “Nice birthday today (age 68).  First time without wine in at least 20 years and it was really nice.”

Carolyne (6): “It felt like such a different experience sitting watching my son, and enjoying watching his class, feeling anxious and clucky and PRESENT … not counting down the minutes until I can go home and have another drink. Mind you – not all smooth sailing.  My poor children are getting to experience their mother being mega cranky during wine o’ clock.  Loud noises bother me…just about everything bothers me….  Crotchety and edgy and cross from 4pm – 7pm. The mornings are good though!”

Trish (100!): “Well here we are…I made it to 100 days and it feels pretty much like 99, 98, 97, etc.  Not really feeling the fireworks.  Don’t get me wrong.  I FEEL wonderful!  I’m sober, and I’m happy, and I’ve lost 12 pounds!  I have lots of time on my hands to do fun stuff.  And I never feel guilty in the morning.  But I’ve realized that counting the days doesn’t have the same effect as I thought it would.  Looking back, the most exciting day was Day 1.  Knowing that I got through it and the world did not end (my world).  That was an amazing day and one I will not soon forget.  Like June 17, 1983 when I threw my cigarettes away.  That was another great day.   What I do love about 100 is getting to celebrate with all of you out there in the 100 Day Challenge.  It is a community like no other.  Members from day 1 through day 400 and more.  Everyone brings something new to the table.  Much like my AA meetings, but more interactive.  Here is one little miracle that happened to me.  My husband, who I thought paid no attention to my new found sobriety and sober cyber friends, gave me a big hug and congratulated me on making it to 100 days.  I really didn’t think he was counting… Hugs to all of you!”

LD (54): “The experience of listening to the audios in Sober Jumpstart helped me to feel less alone in this process of getting sober and it gave me a sense of belonging to a tribe of like minded travelers.  Belle offers a sense of acceptance as well as a clear eyed vision of what challenges will lie ahead and approaches to handling them.  The follow-up call was truthful and insightful,  Belle asked important questions that framed up issues that I need to focus on now that I am more clear headed.  What I would say is…if you have been thinking about getting sober..that means you want to and this is a great way to do it!  Jump in the waters fine!  But make the jump…you will be rewarded for your courage with compassion …  I am feeling stronger, more alive,feeling more forward movement everyday.  Sober and grateful.”

Team 100 Update:

257 members, welcome to Susie (3), ErinS (19), Ivy (7), and Rachelle (27).


I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012