“not counting down the minutes until I can go home and have another drink”

from my inbox:

Allie (day 55): “Thanks for yesterday’s audio. It was an excellent start to my BIRTHDAY ūüôā This time last year, I was just waking up, hungover as hell after ” celebrating” with “friends”. Yuck. Fucking miserable. Not this year. Yay. How awesome is that? Way more excited to be alive in this life. It’s still not easy but I feel like progress is being made every day: ūüôā Thanks again!”

Sober Senior Lady (29): “Nice birthday today (age 68).¬† First time without wine in at least 20 years and it was really nice.”

Carolyne (6): “It felt like such a different experience sitting watching my son, and enjoying watching his class, feeling anxious and clucky and PRESENT … not counting down the minutes until I can go home and have another drink. Mind you – not all smooth sailing. ¬†My poor children are getting to experience their mother being mega cranky during wine o’ clock. ¬†Loud noises bother me…just about everything bothers me…. ¬†Crotchety and edgy and cross from 4pm – 7pm. The mornings are good though!”

Trish (100!): “Well here we are…I made it to 100 days and it feels pretty much like 99, 98, 97, etc.¬† Not really feeling the fireworks.¬† Don’t get me wrong.¬† I FEEL wonderful!¬† I’m sober, and I’m happy, and I’ve lost 12 pounds!¬† I have lots of time on my hands to do fun stuff.¬† And I never feel guilty in the morning.¬† But I’ve realized that counting the days doesn’t have the same effect as I thought it would.¬† Looking back, the most exciting day was Day 1.¬† Knowing that I got through it and the world did not end (my world).¬† That was an amazing day and one I will not soon forget.¬† Like June 17, 1983 when I threw my cigarettes away.¬† That was another great day.¬†¬† What I do love about 100 is getting to celebrate with all of you out there in the 100 Day Challenge.¬† It is a community like no other.¬† Members from day 1 through day 400 and more.¬† Everyone brings something new to the table.¬† Much like my AA meetings, but more interactive.¬† Here is one little miracle that happened to me.¬† My husband, who I thought paid no attention to my new found sobriety and sober cyber friends, gave me a big hug and congratulated me on making it to 100 days.¬† I really didn’t think he was counting… Hugs to all of you!”

LD (54): “The experience of listening to the audios in Sober Jumpstart helped me to feel less alone in this process of getting sober and it gave me a sense of belonging to a tribe of like minded travelers. ¬†Belle offers a sense of acceptance as well as a clear eyed vision of what challenges will lie ahead and approaches to handling them. ¬†The follow-up call was truthful and insightful, ¬†Belle asked important questions that framed up issues that I need to focus on now that I am more clear headed.¬† What I would say is…if you have been thinking about getting sober..that means you want to and this is a great way to do it! ¬†Jump in the waters fine! ¬†But make the jump…you will be rewarded for your courage with compassion …¬† I am feeling stronger, more alive,feeling more forward movement everyday.¬† Sober and grateful.”

Team 100 Update:

257 members, welcome to Susie (3), ErinS (19), Ivy (7), and Rachelle (27).

Belle

I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012