Stay Here Part II


Yeah, so here’s what happened.  I was flying for the first time sober, and I heard a voice. Thankfully the voice was coming from inside my own head, and it said “Stay Here.” Stay in the moment. Don’t go off worrying about tomorrow or yesterday or later or whenever. Don’t freak out about what could happen. First, it probably won’t. Second, you waste energy for no reason. Third, you look goofy holding on for dear life while everyone else is sipping their tea and reading magazines.

well, i was pretty proud of myself for this “Stay here” idea, until i got this email from KT on the day she arrived at 100 days sober:

… I wanted to thank you for the “stay here” post.  That has been my saving grace more times than I can count!  For my treat for reaching 100 days I’m going to get that tattooed on the inside if my wrist!  🙂

Tattooed! Holy, that’s bravery batman. I could never get a tattoo.  I’m too much of a chicken.

But KT inspired me.  And i contacted bracelet chick #2, and asked her to design a bracelet for me.  It’s *brass*, and is lightly brushed on the outside.

stay here

I loved it so much that I’ve asked her if she can make more for us, and she can! (thanks laura).


I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • Just ordered mine! Looking forward to the reminder of staying present. I’m forever torturing myself about the past and imagining future scenarios….which is with drink at the moment! Day 70 and I think that I could potentially be a moderate drinker when I’m done with 100 days. There is a danger in trying this, I know that. I just can’t envisage a future without it. Unless I move to a remote island! Thanks for everyone’s comments which have helped my sanity during the hard times…

  • This is day 10 for me, my husband (who doesn’t drink) and I went to Applebee’s last night. The waitress kept telling me October fest!!!!! All beers half price!!! you know you want one!!! Even my husband said that he could hear wolfie howling in the background . I was mad!!! It would have been easy to have One beer. As if it was ever just one. I could already see myself stopping at the store on my way home for a sixpack because after all it is Octoberfest. I had tea….because of you guys!!!! Thank you so much for just being out there. Love you guys and fuck you wolfie
    Diana Evans

  • Got one – perfect timing. Thanks Belle! ps – I am getting a tattoo (another) that’s freedom related. I guess I’m affirmationed up! 🙂