puff pastry, and oh it’s a good day

today I am making notes and planning my first ‘coaching’ class thingy. and I’m doing some catering. and I’m making puff pastry.

And really, I’m having the best day. Up early after a long sleep, a good run, 5 minutes of meditation (that’s about how long i can tolerate sitting on the bathroom floor waiting for a miracle but instead thinking about fennel soup).  then i had a long shower in the dark.

so i have this idea for the first class thingy, and i briefly run it past my husband.

I say: “It’s a 5-day class. Imagine you’re in a small town and too embarrassed to go to AA. Where else can you get anonymous one-on-one help? Imagine that you can’t even tell your doctor that you want to quit drinking. You can’t even tell your husband.”

My husband shrugs. Then we agree that he’s not an alcoholic and I go back to rolling out butter between two sheets of parchment paper for the puff pastry.

oh and it’s 33C at 12:30 pm. Look it up. that’s hot. and it’s not even the hottest part of the day yet.


I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • I want 33o !!! Jealous 🙂

    Awesome start to your day. I’m on day 2 right now. Ridiculous huh. Or not.

    Love your ideas, love your vibe, belle.

  • I live in a very small town. When I tried AA during a previous attempt at sobriety I would drive all the way to the next town for meetings. I’m glad I discovered other options this time around.

    I think this is the beginning of a revolutionary way to use the Internet and social networking with therapy. People need to start looking at this.

  • good thoughts and prayers for billy eileen. ….little guy.

    small town but a huge university population….so online it is and the coaching things sounds great.

  • Hi Belle, Sober. A tough few days but not because of drinking. One of my kittens “Billy” went missing Sunday evening, We put up Posters and called to houses with fliers. A lady called on Tuesday evening to tell me she had found a cat in a ditch at the side of the road, she stayed with him till I came. It was Billy. he was alive Thank God. He is having surgery tomorrow on his spine and hip. I pray he will be OK. through all the worry and stress I didn’t think of alcohol once Please keep Billy in your thoughts he is a tough cookie and you know what…..so am I 🙂 Hugs Eileen xxx

  • I live in a big city, but even cities have neighbourhoods that can get pretty small. I went to 2 AA meetings in January when I realized I needed to make a big change. A guy who comes into my workplace was there, and for months afterwards at work, he kept referring to alcoholics and giving me meaningful looks. I felt a little bit outed and it made me super uncomfortable. In the small town I come from, it would be that times a hundred. So I agree, more ways of really being anonymous can only help people. Good on you, Belle, for working on this!

  • Oh man. I came from a tiny town. I couldn’t even imagine going to AA there. It’s bad enough in the medium sized town I just moved away from. This is an excellent idea my dear. And I agree with sarita2…I wanted more too 😉

  • mmmmm I LOVE fennel soup!
    I am not sure why you are meditating on the bathroom floor or taking showers in the dark…
    that is hot! yet sounds like a very very nice day.

  • Man, I wanted MORE!
    Love the way you tell a story. Never get enough.
    Love Mr. Belle — his name ;^} and his angle. And his undying support.
    Love the idea of helping people in teensy towns. Had NOT thought of how hard (impossible) that would be! I’m sold even more now!!!