Book giveaway winner announced here (WhinelessinWashington)!
My new sober penpal Jenny wrote:
“Tell me how 7 months (sober) feels?”
what a question! talk about getting right into the meat of things 🙂 here was my answer:
how does 7 months feel. what an interesting question. It feels like a big number that I didn’t create. It’s like I’ve gone to bed and gotten up 230 days in a row without drinking, and that doesn’t seem possible. you know, it’s like anticipating a big vacation and thinking that the time will NEVER pass, and yet it does, steadily, day by day. it’s just like that. and it’s like arriving on a big vacation and not wanting it to end, even though some days are crummy and boring, you still don’t want to go back to ‘real life’. and I hope that in time, I’ll feel more confident that I’m never going back. the further away I get from ‘there’ will convince me that I get to stay ‘here’ … and then perhaps I can look forward a bit more than I am already …
I know i didn’t plan to quit forever. i just found that once I got going, i liked being sober more than i thought i would. it’s BETTER than before. yes, sometimes, i act like it’s a gift that can be thrown away. yes, sometimes i act like nothing can touch me. but in truth, it’s just like i said to Jenny. i get up every day, and i continue to enjoy my life, and i do the things that work. i don’t focus too much on how many days anymore (mostly because the number is so huge, and in some ways it’s a truly impossibly large number). i don’t worry too much when i get teased for not drinking. i know he’s jealous. i know he can’t figure out how to get here where I am. I’m OK with that. I will try to gloat less, and be more humble. But 7 months feels waaaay more awesome-sauce than i thought it would 🙂 and so yes, sometimes i gloat a bit. i dance around the kitchen relishing in my newly found genius. yes. guilty as charged. go ahead and fucking sue me. I’m sober. and. loving. it.
That was fun….seeing my question on your blog. I loved your response!
And, your support keeps me going forward. Day 6 for me. Booze around me today and did not feel interested – because waking up clear headed and not hung over is better than that first drink! Enjoying this sober blogging. Thank you.
I. Love. It. Too!
I love that! Dancing in the kitchen! And we just thought that was fun drunk..(which of course it is..) but it’s fun sober, too! Congratulations!
Hey, Whineless, you’re the winner of the book giveaway. Send me an email with your best contact email and I’ll get your book sent out to you! ~ Belle
no way! that’s so awesome! you can write me at email@example.com. fabulousness!!!!!