solidly sober. all is well.

all is well, busy, getting lots of sleep, running lots. losing weight even with all the apple pie being consumed. solidly sober. no big sober insights, nothing to say at all really (which isn’t like me, i know). life is busy and fulled with jobs 1+2 and passion job #3 thingy (baking/catering). i’ve been trying to spend most of my day offline (checking email only once an hour, no FB, no web surfing) and i’ve found it to be very meditative … create calmness, i get more done, and feel better while getting more done. really, i’m just plain boring over here. no angst, no gnashing of teeth, just regular full life with lots of fun things to do and sunny skies.  oh, and i figured out how to make new york cheesecake with foreign ingredients on the weekend, and my life may never be the same again. all is well. i said that already. well, with cheesecake in your life, it’s easy to feel good.


I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • Wow. You’re amazing. Haven’t seemed to have many big gritty phases at all, that’s so great Belle. Interesting to hear you say that not being online much has been very meditative. With my studies I am sitting at the computer a lot and usually after about 45 minutes of work I start drifting… drifting … Facebook … blogger….emails….the bank again… and then (horror upon horror) the Daily Mail website for a pop culture fix and some paparazzi pix. NO! THE SHAME! THE SHAME! Must stop that. When I start drifting away from my thesis mentally I must make myself get up and walk around for 10 minutes and not do mindless harmful web surfing (paparazzi are scum and I am encouraging them by clicking on their intrusive shots what the hell am I doing??!!).. anyway…raving… might go to bed. xxxx

    • haven’t had many *gritty* moments lately, once I hit 90-100 days things seemed to get significantly easier for me … And I’ve been doing at least one day per week of limited Facebook/email/online research and it’s easily the best day of the week for me in terms of both productivity and inner-calm : )