90 days sober and an eargasm

90 days today. i’ve been planning a reward but haven’t come up with anything suitable yet.

I have a long — “time to make the donuts” — kind of day ahead of me today.

As I celebrate 90 days, i’ll share a few random things:

  • my favorite meal to have at home is roast chicken with carrots, dressing, mashed potatoes, and cranberry sauce (homemade if possible, depends where you live, can’t get fresh cranberries here). my favorite meal to have out is breakfast. yes, it’s eggs and toast, but in a restaurant it tastes so much better.
  • my favorite dessert is Pie. I know i write a lot about cake, but a really good apple pie can change my day. or homemade cherry pie (none of that canned stuff). or lemon meringue. or coconut cream.
  • ok, something not food related: i had younger sisters growing up, but LOVED playing with my teddy bear. i used to think if i was quiet enough, that i could hear it speaking to me. one year i made my teddy bear a christmas tree out of the branches cut off the bottom of our big tree. i still have that bear, worn and bald, stored in my in-laws’ basement.
  • i can sign in tune and have perfect pitch. i can sing an A, for some reason that sound just lives in my head and i can pull it out at will. i used to tune the instruments in my junior high school band. if i’m watching a street performer and his guitar is wildly out of tune, i scrunch up my face a little.
  • that said, music is the one thing that can consistently and repeatedly give me goosebumps.  listen to this if you dare: http://gawker.com/eargasm/


  • when i go swimming, i feel like i’m on vacation. even if it’s snowing outside and i had to take the bus to get to the pool. something about swimming is magically relaxing to me. it takes me somewhere else. sort of like a long run, but with less angst …
  • i wrote this in my journal once: If i could paint like Mark Lague, my life would be complete:

Now I live in Europe, i’m super happily married, i have a couple of great jobs,  and I’m a wine-free zone. I don’t need much else : ) Think i’ll celebrate 90 days with a nice thick English-language newspaper imported from somewhere (Guardian UK? NYT?), and then on Sunday, when i’m finally done my work week, i’m going to spend an entire afternoon just reading it …

Hugs, me


I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • Wow, thanks for the link to Carrie’s Creep rendition. Ended up buying it on iTunes. Love it. (yep, I’m replying to a post that’s 2.5 years old).

  • I know this is an old post, but I’ve been making my way through your blog from the beginning for inspiration. I just have to say I LOVE the radiohead version of creep, but this version is utterly incredible. I was just sitting at my computer bawling (in a good kind of ‘what a release way’) while listening. Thanks for introducing such a talented artist. Wow.

  • Congrats on your 90+ days Belle! I love your random things about you, and that Creep song…. love. it.
    You should be so very proud of yourself. Thanks for your voice and for sharing your story with us.

  • Belle, super duper congratulations. You are so awesome and so awe inspiring! I’m not sure what I would have done these last two months without you and your writing. You bring hope, humor, caring and honesty to each and every day.

    Enjoy every moment of your day tomorrow. You have worked for and earned it.

  • Belle you are so great. 90 days for the girl who was only planning on 30! well done girl. And for keeping us amused and amazed by your blogging virtually everyday of the 90! Big hugs and stuff xxx

  • Woo – fucking – HOO! I am so happy for you! 90 days! Awesome! Exclamation points all around!

    p.s. I still have my threadbare stuffed dog/best friend, Henry. I never made him a christmas tree though 🙁

  • Woo-hoo! There’s something magical about 90 days…it’s like that old saying, “today is the first day of the rest of your life”!


  • hooray for you!!!!!!!! You are amazing! This post also sounds calm, after I read it I breathed a sigh of relief for you, so glad you made it here. This is life changing and I hope to follow in your footsteps.

  • Congratulations Belle, You know, it’s just going to keep getting better. I hope I’m writing this 10 years from now on your, shit, I can’t figure the number out but you know what I mean. I hope I’m writing,” It keeps getting better” on your 3,650th day of sobriety. You know us drunks, we always want more, the difference is now, instead of more booze, we want more of life.

    It’s been an amazing 90 days spent with you. Kary

  • 90 days!!! Congratulations on embarking on such a wonderful journey, sharing it so eloquently, and reaching this milestone.
    It has been great driving alongside you in our little sober cars (I was sometimes a bit behind you, but i was also heading in the right direction).
    Love the radiohead cover and love the new font! So much easier to read for this granny to read 🙂
    Have a wonderful day and enjoy your weekend spoils. Lots of love xo

  • OMG, You’ve done so well! Congratulations! And thank you for replying to my blog – I thought I was on my own . Please keep posting and reading as i need all support i can get. Hugs, mk