car accident subject line increases readership

duly noted:  my ‘happy’ posts get fewer pageviews than my ranting, on-the-edge-of-the-cliff posts.

Good to know.

So this post will get 3 views then!  it’s positively brimming with ease and flow.  If you’re looking for a car accident, best to leave now. Unless i put something good in the subject line …  Done!

today is day 75 (go, me!).  old drinking buddy from North America is in town for one night (tonight), on his way through to go somewhere else interesting.

i literally sit my husband down and prep him in advance of dinner.  “i don’t want him to make fun of me or give me a hard time for not drinking.” i tell husband, “watch out for me, and if necessary you may have to say something nice to deflect his jabbing/jeering. He’s a hard-core drinker this one.  start at noon, pace yourself, drink all day. He is going to give me a hard time.  I don’t to feel any pressure. Interest is fine, but no pressure.”

we go for dinner (me, husband, buddy).  i order tonic water.  You’re not drinking?


not at all?

I say: I stopped for awhile and realized that i felt better, and didn’t wake up at 3 am anymore.  so i’ve decided to stop for good.

He says: yeah, we’re getting old.  so on the train today they served us this omelet with sausage and orange juice  …

and that was that.

can i say it again?

nobody cares.  at all.  not even a little bit. no one gives a rat’s ass that i’m not drinking.  most people are so fucking self-involved that they could care less about how dynamically evolved i am becoming : ) this is said with sarcasm, of course.  i’m relieved that he didn’t take a jab at me.  i’m super pleased that i had tonic water and tea while he had (alone) a half liter of wine followed by 6 x 1 ounce shots of port.

ok. back to our regularly schedule program already in progress… where i’m doing great, thanks for asking : )


I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

  • I have been sober for the past 8 years and I have had a couple of awkward experiences. I am 25 so I was sober for the first half of my 20’s (obviously, but just giving you a point of reference). Mostly people don’t care at all. Sometimes, people will ask ”why not?” and things of that nature…not too crazy. One time one of my brothers friend looked at me pretty crooked when I refused pot and alcohol at my brother’s mini birthday party. I didn’t confront him but one of my brother’s other buddies who was more understanding of my situation told him to shut the heck up. Pretty uncomfortable. I have pretty much learned to stay out of places I don’t belong or that will put me in uncomfortable situations (for the most part). I got help from a sober living called New Life House. Check out their site if you are looking for help. New Life House – A Structured Sober Living

  • The people I’ve been worried about telling never made a big deal out of my not drinking. No one has given me a hard time, though you can be sure I have a whole speech prepared in my head should it happen. Sigh. Maybe your friend didn’t know what to say, but it sounds like he was supportive in his own way and that’s great. Congrats on 75 days!!

  • Congrats on day 75! I’m glad he didn’t give you a hard time. Ironically my mom is the only one that hasn’t been “ok whatever” about it with me. And that is just because she is annoyed I won’t go to the liquor store to pick up her port. Meh, she will get over it 🙂

    • i haven’t told my mom yet. we live on different continents. she will be very very surprised… by then i’ll be a year sober when i see her next summery. i hope to also be tall, have long hair, and be thin. well, at least i’ll be sober!

  • What? No car accident?! Just a post about generally good and/or neutral things?! Shame! Shaaaaaaame!

    Kidding, obviously. Congrats on 75 days!

    I hadn’t even thought of looking to see which posts get more hits, but I wonder if maybe some of the negative ones are more popular just because sometimes it’s helpful to know that someone else is dealing with problems, so we don’t feel as alone. If that’s the case, then sharing your problems is actually helping others to deal with theirs, which isn’t so negative after all.

    Of course, it could just be that we’re all morbidly fascinated by other peoples’ misery. 😛

  • Classic. Sounds like a great guy. I’ve never been given any shit either, although at times I’ve been expecting it. I think it’s just me giving myself shit, worrying that I’m not going to be so ‘fun’ or ‘popular’ being sober. At first I would try very very hard to still be life-of-the-party-girl!! even though I wasn’t drinking. The first wedding I went to sober (there have been 4 in one year) I busied myself fetching other people drinks all night. “Look! I’m still cool!” Tragic. Anyhoo… yeah my struggling posts always get more page views .. and I wonder how people know to go only to those ones and not others…? Stats are confusing and best to be ignored I find. Going great Belle… xxxxx