new-sober-emotions are not to be feared
i am less wobbly today. i had a very magical night’s sleep last night (8.5 hrs, didn’t wake once, woke at 8 am feeling like a million dollars). also, sunday long run = good times.
today i think i’m going to go ahead with the plans to work for the new company. I’ve been wanting to make this third hobby-job a bigger part of my life and this new contract has been dropped in my lap by a referral. i think all of the flashing indicators are saying “go this way” and thus i am going to follow along and see where it goes.
I am also ramping up my regular job work stuff now that it’s september; i send out emails and clients respond. I will be teaching again, and will be happy to be on the phone with people (in English!) starting in just a few weeks.
what did i learn yesterday?
I learned from Mrs D that my heightened nervousness might be new-sober-emotions and not to be feared. I learned from Paul that i’m focusing too much on the consequences of failure and not enough on the likelihood of failure (which is admittedly small). I learned (again) that i’m a girl who likes a clean house. I learned (thanks so much) that 8.5 hrs is enough sleep if i sleep through the night without waking! yeah! hooray! I learned that I love waking at 8 am … I learned that a big drumming group performing outdoors gives me the shivers (encountered one today on my long run). I learned that even on Sundays, the husband can say “i think i’m going to work a full day today” and instead of moaning that it’s sunny and he should do something with me, i have learned over time that if he feels like working – he should work. Motivation ebbs and flows for everyone. If he wants to work on a hot sunny sunday, who am i to argue! it’s not what i would do, but he’s not a sun whore like i am.
that said, me, this girl, i am going out to sit in the sun and read my book and plot to change the world. happy sunday : )