Wednesday Celebration Roundup

Happy Day 50 to Stanley!

Happy Day 50 to Wafflehousemomma!

Happy Day 50 to Leener!

Happy Day 50 to Smokey!

Happy Day 50 to MelMel!

Happy Day 50 to Scrappy!

Happy Day 50 to Peppercorn!

Happy Day 50 to Springer

Happy Day 50 to Debbi Does Sober!

Happy Day 100 to LDM4ME!

Happy Day 100 to ree67!

Happy Day 100 to Mlodius!

Happy Day 100 to Frog!

Happy Day 100 to Bug June!

Happy Day 100 to MiMoMa!

Happy Day 100 to JenJen!

Happy Day 100 to CryBabyinCali!

Happy Day 100 to Lars!

Happy Day 100 to Flyaway!

Happy Day 100 to Sober Tea!

Happy Day 100 to Dry Ace!

Happy Day 180 to SDBKatz!

Happy Day 180 to AuntieMame!

Happy Day 180 to Arya!

Happy Day 200 to renne in rochester!

Happy Day 200 to LittleRed!

Happy Day 200 to Sandal!

Happy Day 200 to RedRidingHood!

Happy Day 300 to SoberinVa!

Happy Day 300 to Jaylee!

Happy Day 300 to MrsRoberts!

Happy Day 300 to Lizzytish!

Happy Day 300 to Peaceable J!

Happy Day 300 to Mindful Monica!

Happy Day 300 to SarahJune31!

Happy Day 365 to Blondie!

Happy Day 365 to Jamie-Tampa!

Happy Day 365 to Capt. Unwinded!

Happy Day 365 to Tiger2017!

Happy Day 365 to Honoring Grace!

Happy Day 365 to Boozy Betty!

Happy Day 365 to A_Sober_Cannibal!

Happy Day 365 to Shannon A!

Happy Day 365 to Sisty!

Happy Day 365 to SohoCat!

Happy Day 365 to Ashley!

Happy Day 400 to Calypso!

Happy Day 400 to Allie!

Happy Day 400 to Bunnie!

Happy Day 400 to Liz!

Happy Day 400 to A Girl Named Sam!

Happy Day 400 to Meadowmuffins!

Happy Day 400 to Jeans!

Happy Day 400 to AmandaJ!

Happy Day 400 to Jena14!

Happy Day 500 to JT Weir!

Happy Day 500 to Edi!

Happy Day 500 to Leftcoastgirl!

Happy Day 600 to CaseyM!

Happy Day 600 to Runnergirl!

Happy Day 700 to Trueleah!

Happy Day 700 to Phoenix!

Happy Day 700 to ChellyBelly!

Happy Day 800 to Linley!

Happy Day 900 to Grateful Girl!

Happy Day 900 to Jenuhful!

Happy Day 1000 to Coffeecuphead!

Happy Day 1000 to Kitkatpaddywack!

Happy Day 1000 to 1035!

Happy Day 1000 to Frankie!

Happy Day 1000 to LJ63!

Happy Day 1000 to Sean!

Happy Day 1100 to Elly!

Happy Day 1100 to 19Cathleen!

Happy Day 1100 to Rexytime!

Happy Day 1100 to Cocomack!

Happy Day 1100 to NewChris!

Happy Day 1100 to Jas!

Happy Day 1100 to Canadian Girl!

Happy Day 1200 to Paulita!

Happy Day 1200 to Artsmommy!

Happy Day 1200 to Ish!

Happy Day 1200 to Bekki!

Happy Day 1200 to Meagan!

Happy Day 1200 to Lara!

Happy Day 1300 to Janett!

Happy Day 1300 to tlecompte!

Happy Day 1300 to hcassstevens!

Happy Day 1300 to otherjosh!

Happy Day 1300 to runnermom!

Happy Day 1300 to jlynn!

Happy Day 1400 to KateF!

Happy Day 1400 to Margy!

Happy Day 1400 to Wanting to be a sober mom!

Happy Day 1400 to Tammi!

Happy Day 1400 to Shell Bell!

Happy Day 1400 to Tuomas!

Happy Day 1400 to Nuchter Maya!

Happy Day 1400 to Janet!

Happy Day 1400 to Beach_Gurl!

Happy Day 1500 to DianeLouise!

Happy Day 1600 to Original Betgh!

Happy Day 1600 to Leah!

In this audio, I call bullshit on a bunch of excuses. I can’t be sober in this way, my support must look like ‘this’, I can’t practise my skating routine on the path at the park. All not true.

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  • Get these audios on iTunes (apple podcast) > link



OK, I get this kind of thing in my Inbox all the time. This will sound familiar to you:

“Dear Belle, I wish there was an AA meeting close to me that had people that were my age. I wish I could go to an AA meeting where there were hot men. I wish there was an AA meeting where they were 35-41 years old. I wish I could find a place to practice my skating routine, but I can only do it at the rink.”

What do you hear there when I say that? You hear wolfie, right?

“I can’t get it that way. Those people can’t help me. This is the wrong place. This is the wrong time. I can’t start until everything lines up. I can’t do it this way.”

You have a voice in your head that wants you to keep drinking, so it will manufacture reasons why the support is wrong for you. “I can’t have a phone call with a sober coach because of 1300 imaginary reasons. I can’t practice my skating routine unless I’m at the rink.”

You’ve thought that. Perfectionism.

“If I can’t get it to all line up then I don’t want to do it.”

And I want you to know that today when I was at the duck pond, when I was doing my run, I saw a woman practicing her skating routine on the pathway. She wasn’t in the water, she was on the track where I was running around the pond, she was off to one side doing her skating routine.

And I looked at her and I thought: Fuck, that’s genius. You don’t wait for winter. You don’t wait for ice. You can practise it right here. Of course you can. Stop with all of this, ‘It’s not lined up properly’. Stop with all of this, “I need the right room at the right time with the right person’. It’s all bullshit.

Your brain is manufacturing reasons why this won’t work for you.

It’s all not true.

I took a picture of the woman with the skating thing [below] …

And I thought, if that’s not a sober metaphor I don’t know what is. And then this morning, I get an email that says: “I really wish I could find an AA meeting where people were 26-31 or 35-42.”


I call bullshit.

I call bullshit.

And you can stop that shit right now.


Wednesday Celebration Roundup

Happy Day 50 to IC Momentum!

Happy Day 50 to Pahobe!

Happy Day 50 to Lordi!

Happy Day 50 to Ket!

Happy Day 50 to Garcia!

Happy Day 50 to Celine!

Happy Day 50 to LateTrier!

Happy Day 50 to RoseStar!

Happy Day 100 to ree67!

Happy Day 100 to Klowe!

Happy Day 100 to fifty & free!

Happy Day 100 to Sillymelove!

Happy Day 100 to mich2point0!

Happy Day 100 to Annikki!

Happy Day 100 to lmichel!

Happy Day 180 to renne in rochester!

Happy Day 180 to LittleRed!

Happy Day 180 to Sandal!

Happy Day 180 to RedRidingHood!

Happy Day 200 to Myriam!

Happy Day 200 to Goldie!

Happy Day 200 to Lex!

Happy Day 200 to Newg!

Happy Day 200 to Leigh Ann (penpal #3)!

Happy Day 200 to Alicat!

Happy Day 200 to Char S!

Happy Day 200 to RossFU!

Happy Day 200 to Superkitty!

Happy Day 200 to 35&changing!

Happy Day 300 to Lime Tree!

Happy Day 300 to Princess Buttercup!

Happy Day 300 to Wynn!

Happy Day 300 to Sophiestar!

Happy Day 300 to Jazzie!

Happy Day 300 to Gem64!

Happy Day 300 to Bruna!

Happy Day 300 to Nowinemom!

Happy Day 300 to SueW!

Happy Day 300 to Roadtosoberville!

Happy Day 300 to Kiki71!

Happy Day 300 to Honey Bear!

Happy Day 300 to Resiliensea!

Happy Day 365 to Grace514!

Happy Day 365 to Indy!

Happy Day 365 to Pwhims!

Happy Day 365 to Rachel E!

Happy Day 365 to FlightPlan!

Happy Day 365 to Inspired!

Happy Day 365 to Calypso!

Happy Day 365 to Allie!

Happy Day 365 to Bunnie!

Happy Day 365 to Liz!

Happy Day 365 to Girl Named Sam!

Happy Day 365 to Meadowmuffins!

Happy Day 365 to AmandaJ!

Happy Day 365 to Jena14!

Happy Day 400 to Gene!

Happy Day 400 to Lola4126!

Happy Day 400 to TJS!

Happy Day 400 to Ruby Harper!

Happy Day 400 to Poppy!

Happy Day 400 to Topo Chico!

Happy Day 400 to Ruby!

Happy Day 400 to Hollm!

Happy Day 400 to Reg!

Happy Day 400 to bemmy girl!

Happy Day 400 to BattleMatt!

Happy Day 400 to Maverick!

Happy Day 400 to Aprile!

Happy Day 400 to Froggy Google!

Happy Day 400 to Unduped!

Happy Day 500 to Rogueyogi!

Happy Day 500 to Miss Kell!

Happy Day 500 to Dry Ginger!

Happy Day 500 to Reenie!

Happy Day 500 to Imara!

Happy Day 600 to Auds!

Happy Day 600 to KaffyB!

Happy Day 600 to Debbie!

Happy Day 600 to KLC!

Happy Day 600 to Country Pat!

Happy Day 600 to Lanza!

Happy Day 600 to Chell!

Happy Day 600 to Franny!

Happy Day 600 to Husband #1!

Happy Day 700 to Hughie!

Happy Day 700 to JP!

Happy Day 700 to Gypsy Girl!

Happy Day 800 to Cal!

Happy Day 800 to Gordon!

Happy Day 800 to Unwinedgal!

Happy Day 900 to tk!

Happy Day 1000 to Indian Lake!

Happy Day 1000 to MelP!

Happy Day 1000 to Solstice Guy!

Happy Day 1000 to Summer Walking!

Happy Day 1000 to Turcotte!

Happy Day 1000 to Southern Magnolia1013!

Happy Day 1000 to Maureen!

Happy Day 1100 to GG!

Happy Day 1100 to Festie!

Happy Day 1100 to Graceb!

Happy Day 1100 to Paris!

Happy Day 1100 to Shout444!

Happy Day 1100 to Midwestveggie!

Happy Day 1100 to Rah!

Happy Day 1100 to RoseMarie!

Happy Day 1100 to Janna!

Happy Day 1100 to Jacqui!

Happy Day 1100 to Kelz!

Happy Day 1100 to Petunia!

Happy Day 1200 to Sharlotte!

Happy Day 1200 to Mizgabz!

Happy Day 1200 to Sanfransober!

Happy Day 1200 to Sarah72!

Happy Day 1200 to CassieB!

Happy Day 1200 to Shelby!

Happy Day 1200 to Weenie!

Happy Day 1200 to 1111!

Happy Day 1200 to Manda!

Happy Day 1300 to Julie-Joy’s Dad!

Happy Day 1300 to Jessie!

Happy Day 1300 to Heike!

Happy Day 1300 to Isabel!

Happy Day 1300 to Daybird!

Happy Day 1300 to LolaB!

Happy Day 1300 to Connie!

Happy Day 1300 to Fich!

Happy Day 1300 to Hank!

Happy Day 1300 to Aschae!

Happy Day 1300 to Emery!

Happy Day 1400 to Denise!

Happy Day 1400 to TheFun4!

Happy Day 1400 to terence!

Happy Day 1400 to Clear Eyed Girl!

Happy Day 1400 to Hazeleyes!

Happy Day 1400 to Case Study Tim!

Happy Day 1400 to Baby girl butterfly!

Happy Day 1400 to Primrose!

Happy Day 1400 to Sadie!

Happy Day 1400 to SignGurl!

Happy Day 1400 to Jeannie Yogini!

Happy Day 1400 to Jilly Bean!

Happy Day 1500 to Jenisthesoberist!

Happy Day 1500 to Sharon!

Happy Day 1500 to LD!

Happy Day 1500 to Laurie!

Happy Day 1600 to Kate Sober Journalist!

Happy Day 1700 to Amy!

Happy Day 1915 to me!

tuesday update: the future of the One Minute Messages

Here’s the link to today’s Tuesday Update message. This is omm260, and it’s a recap of the distribution of these one minute messages, how to send them out the best way.

To hear this tuesday message, play below. nothing to download. just press play.



links mentioned in the audio:

  • Gumroad: Sign up for these one minute messages on Gumroad to get access to ALL 200+ episodes & the occasional video from paris. there’s a video about a poop truck:
  • iTunes (apple podcast) > link
  • Get the daily email messages > link
  • Longer podcast subscription > link


And here’s the photo of my lunch, funded by the tiny gift fund.

chocolate with cranberries from Frankfurt, Germany

last year we did some fundraising for a homeless shelter that accepts men and women, couples, and dogs.

When my step-father was sick (he’s the one i call Mr. Cinnamon Toast in podcasts), he asked that his clothes be donated to a few charities, and this special homeless shelter was one.

he also had a lot of hand-wrapped stones, which i brought back to france so that we could do the stone fundraiser. there are more of those stones available, too, and some new ones this year from my most recent trip (my mom keeps finding more hidden in the house).

and this year i want to ADD to the stones, and introduce …
a blind auction. 

what’s that?

I show you some cool treats, you EMAIL me with your highest bid that you’d be willing to pay to sponsor the homeless shelter and receive the specific treat being auctioned.

The email with the highest donation after 24 hrs wins the treat.

It’s called a ‘blind’ auction because you don’t know what the high bid is, you just have to submit an email with what you’d like to donate.

Here’s the first treat, this is bittersweet artisanal chocolate + cranberries that i got when i was in Frankfurt, Germany.

Would you like to ‘win’ this chocolate bar and make a donation to the homeless shelter at the same time?

send me an email with “chocolate from germany” in the subject line, and tell me your bid. You can use any currency you like (then i’ll convert to USD to compare to the other bids). Maybe the high bid will be $8 or maybe it’ll be $18. or higher. i literally have no idea! that’s the fun of it 😉


send me an email with “chocolate from germany” in the subject line, and tell me your bid.

hugs from me
belle xo

… Deadline is Wednesday September 20th @ 4 pm Eastern …

regular. normal. predictable. 


I have a new Monday update message ready for you. This is omm256. This message summarizes what’s coming up this week including the photography project.

To hear this Monday message, play below. nothing to download. just press play.





links mentioned in the audio:

and in case you hate listening to audios, here’s the transcript:

This is a slightly longer One Minute Message because it’s Monday and I want to give you a little overview of what this week might look like.

I have been away for the weekend and so I am coming back to a full Inbox of which I have done about 2/3rds today. So, if you’re waiting on an email from me, you may have already heard from me today, you may hear from me tomorrow. We did have crappy weather, thank you for asking. It rained all one day and then the second day it was grey but didn’t pour rain so we could do a lot of walking and not that you care, but thank you for your well wishes.

We did also spend a fair amount of time, as I’m sure you did, following what was happening with the hurricane in Florida. I’ve been getting email updates from my pen pals yesterday and today, letting me know that they’re safe. And so, if you fall into that category, you can also send me an email and let me know that you are well and that your parents got moved and that your dog got moved and that all of the other variables that needed to happen did happen.

If you’re also like me, you probably reached a point where you couldn’t watch the coverage anymore because it was making you feel wound up or that there was a sense of something catastrophic that then, thankfully, eased up in terms of the predictions and then there was this gigantic sigh of relief I’m sure for everybody, not just for me following this.

But, we’ll use this as a preface then to say that this week you will be extra specially kind to yourself because these sorts of things going on in the world, whether you live in Florida or not, there are things that are stressful and have every potential capacity to wind you up. You will watch how much TV you watch. You will read rather than watch videos because they’ll wind you up more. You will turn off the television. You will turn away from things that make you feel wacky. And you will drop your shoulders and breathe a bit and relax a bit and remember to be kinder to yourself, no matter where you are in the world, no matter what’s happening around you. (You could listen to this message any day and it would be the same thing. I might say it every Monday. Should I say it? Every Monday, I’ll turn on the microphone and I’ll say, ‘Please be nice to you today. OK. Goodbye.’)

Coming up this week, there will be 2 new One Minutes Messages in addition to this one, so a total of 3 out of 5 days. There will be at least one new email every day, sometimes two. The new class that I am starting for people who are 200+ days sober about worth has started its registration today. The class begins next Monday. Topics include: different ways that we determine worth, messages that we get from family, how do we construct our own ideas of worth and going forward how do we protect our ideas, how do we make these ideas concrete in our own heads. So, if you’re interested in that, you go to: and you can have a look at that for anybody who is 200 days or more.

Otherwise, this week is a relatively regular week I think. You’ll notice that everything that I do seems relatively predictable. Maybe that’s a good thing. I mean launching a new class is not really predictable, but One Minute Messages, you’ll hear my voice as many times as you want to this week. I’ll be sending out 2 podcasts as well to podcast members. So if you want to hear longer things, you want to hear my voice more often, you can do that.

You can read the blog. That’s always free. You can read it online. Oh, and I put up a link to a new photography project, which is a free, fun thing that we do where everybody sends in a photo on a certain theme and then we just post them. It’s not a contest. A contest would imply that there’s a winner. It’s a project. It’s an opportunity to look at our world differently with new eyes. I think I posted it on Friday of last week. You have a 10 day deadline to submit your photo. Anybody can submit a photo. You don’t have to be photographer. You don’t have to be especially talented. It’s more just a … it’s more just a project. It’s not, like I said, it’s not a competition and if you procrastinate too long and you think, ‘oh, I  need to wait for the perfect timing’, it won’t happen. So just look at the assignment and go do it and then you’re done. And you’ll see that it’s funner than you think it is. Especially if you don’t fret too much about it.

OK, well that’s it. Anything else you’d like? Any suggestions for what you might like this week? I think the first 3 suggestions I get, I will seriously consider. Send me an email. Talk to you soon. OK, good byyyyeeeee!  Happy Monday

monday update: from your point of view

Here’s the link to today’s Monday Update message. This is omm253. This message summarizes what’s coming up this week, and i wanted to share an idea with you about Point of View: “what does it MEAN when they say this or that…”

To hear this Monday message, play below. nothing to download. just press play.



links mentioned in the audio (in order):

and in case you hate listening to audios, here’s the transcript:


(I took the liberty of adding a ‘u’ to Labour Day Weekend.  Is that Canadian?  Did I get it right?  Do I get a cookie? J)

Good Morning. I had an idea to do these Monday morning updates, sort of to set the pace and tone for the week, but also to let you know what happened last week and what’s happening this week. Last week on Friday, I opened a new session of the Sober Jumpstart Class with 25 new spots and I think as of today, Monday morning, there are 9 left (or 8). So if you are interested in doing that, you might want to leap on it now.

The other thing I announced last week was a new class/workshop for anybody who is more than 200 days sober. We’re calling it Sober Seniors, but really it’s more like Sober Champion or Sober Veteran or Sober something. I want you to know also that, this week — and this doesn’t happen all the time, but it definitely happened this week, especially with the message that I sent this Monday, where I said: here’s the thing for people who are new and here’s the thing for people who are 200+ days. Guess what happens? — And the reason I’m sharing this with you is so that you can see the parallel with your life. Guess what happens when you share that you’re going to do this and this? The people who are on Day 1 say “there was too much about the 200 day people.” And the people who are on 200 days say “there’s not enough for me these days, there should be more for senior people.”

Both of those opinions are true. I’m sharing this with you not because you should feel sorry for me, because I don’t feel sorry for me. Because I already know something that I want you to know which is: both of those opinions are true from the point of view of the person speaking. So there’s really no argument, there’s no: ‘No, no you’re wrong’. There’s no: ‘Let me explain’. We try to explain things to people that are TRUE from their point of view.

So you might be one of the people who emailed me and said, “Gee I wish there was more stuff for beginners”. And I’m like, everything’s for beginners. And then you might be someone who says, “I wish there was more stuff for people who are further along”. And I say, all of the early stuff is also applicable to you, just change some of the words. I set myself up that I will be a lighthouse and I will say and do the same thing all the time and that will either appeal to you or it won’t. I’m sharing this with you, not because I think it’s a really interesting story, but because I think it’s a model of something that is happening to you right now in your own life, which is where you feel like (please, I don’t feel like this) — where you feel like, “no matter what I do, somebody’s going to complain.” I don’t feel like that because I actually know what the perspective is. I know that I do the next right thing as far as I can see and that will either resonate with people or it won’t. But from my point of view, this is the right thing to do going forward, which is to have things for both ends of the sober continuum.

In your life, there are some things that you decide to do where some people are supportive and some people aren’t. Some people get it and some people don’t. Perhaps I’m modelling this for you. (You’ll remember that modelling has 2 L’s the same way that travelling last week had 2 L’s. This is Canadian spelling, I’m slowly going to inform you, word by word.) I’m modelling the fact that it doesn’t bother me. In fact, it makes me feel happy because it means that if you’re on Day 1 it’s like: ‘there’s too much about the old people’. And I’m like, OK you know, they’re really getting value out of the stuff I provide especially when it’s tailored right to them. And then if somebody says the same thing: ‘why isn’t there anything more for those…it seems like all you do is for beginning people, don’t you have anything for me’. And I’m thinking, OK what they’re saying is, I don’t want to go away, I want to stay here, can you entice me to stay. Can you provide some content that could be useful for me.

Can you hear the message that is behind the thing that the person is saying? Because our gut reflex is to be defensive to the words. You can’t be defensive to somebody’s words unless you know what the emotion driving it is. What’s behind it? Why are they saying those words? To respond to the words is to misunderstand completely what’s happening. Because there’s always a thing behind the words. Why would they say that? What would they have to be feeling to say that? So, let me tell you about this week. And if you think it’s a good idea or a bad idea, I’m OK with both of them. That’s what I mean when I say I’m okay with you not agreeing with me. I’m okay with it because I know that from your point of view, everything, of course, makes 100% total sense to you from your point of view. Of course it does. As it does from mine.

Here’s my week coming up: I have been working this past weekend which I don’t normally do. I’m not usually online on the weekends, but I have been. Because if you signed up for the Sober Jumpstart Class on Friday, it would be rude if you’re first interaction with me was then an out of the office for a long weekend, 3 days because it’s Labour Day Weekend. So I decided I would work through the weened and that I would take this coming weekend off. So I share that with you in advance so that you know that Friday, Saturday, Sunday I’ll be off line this coming weekend as opposed to having taken Labour Day weekend off. We’re going to the beach, and you will cross your fingers that we get like, I don’t know, one sunny day out of those 3 days because it seems to have turned to be September weather here abruptly. I’m not thrilled with it. Like I have to wear socks again which I’m against. I’m against socks all the time. I’m one of those ‘wear your tags inside out, don’t like stuff to scratch me’…I don’t like socks either.

Also coming up this week, there will be, in addition to this, 2 other One Minute Messages for a total of 3. I will, not everyday, but in some of the days where I don’t put up a new one, I will put up an archived one. Like you might have noticed on the weekend there was one for Julie from the cruse director at The Love Boat. She made a guest appearance/reappearance.

I sent out a new podcast to podcast subscribers about compliance on the weekend, that was on Saturday, and a new one will go out Tuesday or Wednesday, but I am definitely doing 2 new podcasts a week now for people who have the membership for…to get the new podcasts every week as they’re released. It is cheaper to do the membership than it is to buy them individually. But of course you may still choose to pick and choose. You can do that. I did get an email though from somebody who said: “I used to pick and choose the audios until I realized there was something in every audio and that I couldn’t base it on the title,” so I’ll just (it sounds so self-serving) I’ll just share that with you in case that’s helpful.

I will also share with you a little story from my weekend which will be illustrative and will sound like sobriety. Are you ready? I did a month without television, for the month of August. It’s something that I do each year. I don’t suggest this. I’m not recommending this. I’m not saying this is good for early sobriety. I’m simply telling you something that I did. Like quitting drinking, the period of time was short, and so it meant that I watched for the end of it the whole time. Which is why I actually think it’s easier to quit drinking for longer than it is to quit for shorter and there is a One Minute Message about this called Long Haul. I’ll put a link to that in the show notes. But I quit for a month which meant that probably only 3 times or 4 times in the month did I really think, “Fuck I really wish I could just like, zone out and watch a show.” It’s not that I don’t have other ways to zone out, I do. I was just doing an exclusion with the television thing. And then, when it got to the end of the month, of course I got to make a decision about whether or not I continued. I thought, “well I only said I was doing it for a month so.” I still haven’t watched television, yet. So now it’s what day (I don’t even know what the day is) the 4th? But what I did do was I played a video game which was part of the thing that I gave up. I gave up TV and video games for a month.

What I did do on Saturday – this is going to sound familiar – is I said to myself, I’ll just play one game. I’ll just play 2 games. (I’ll just have one drink.) I’ll just do a little bit. I’ve had some time off, I’m sure now I won’t get sucked right back into it.

I loaded the game on my phone, snuggled into bed and thought, “oh this is the thing I’ve been looking for all month. This is the thing I’ve been waiting for. I’ve been yearning for something. So I snuggled into bed on Saturday and I got my phone and I turned on the game and 4½ hours went by. It went from light to dark. I didn’t eat. It’s not even that I really felt like playing the game. It’s that once I started to play the game, I didn’t feel like stopping. It’s not that I was particularly excited to be playing the game. It’s that once I began, I was disinclined to stop. So at the end of that experiment, I uninstalled it from my phone.

I’m sharing it with you as a way of accountability to say the following: the thing that is setting off that part of my brain doesn’t go away by me not doing it for a month. The only way to get that to stop… like I said it came up 3 times in the month where I really thought – yeah, yeah, yeah I want this … if I quit for longer, that 3 times would become 2 and then it would become 1 and then it would stop. I know this is the same for quitting drinking. I share this as a story because if you are near Day 1, you can see directly how this applies to being sober. But if you’re on Day 200, you can see directly how this applies to quitting smoking. You think about it a lot at the beginning and then less and less and then it stops. If we quit for a day, then we’re just waiting to drink again. It’s easier to quit for longer. I suggest quitting for longer only if what you’ve been trying has been working and you’d like to try a new strategy and so, it’s sometimes easier to say 100 days than a week. It’s easier to say a year than 100 days. Because then your brain goes, “OK, well I’m just not going to think about it then, I’m not going to negotiate.” The answer is no. The answer is just no, I’m not going to keep revisiting it going, how about now, what about now, can I do it now. No.”

OK, well this is long for a Monday update, so stuff coming up:

  • 2 x podcasts a week
  • 3 x One Minute Messages this week
  • Daily emails, sometimes twice a day. Definitely one a day, sometimes two
  • I’m doing coaching calls this week, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
  • I’ll be away Friday, Saturday, Sunday offline. Not travelling with my laptop. I’ll have my phone for emergencies but I’m offline. And I will be at the beach. Theoretically, not sitting under an umbrella. Well, if it’s umbrella, it better be a sun umbrella.

That’s all I have to say. Happy Monday. Talk to you soon. OK Good Byyyyyeeee.

“I have asked for help and you have given it”

email from mygi (day 1): 

“Hey Belle, just finished listening to Lesson #1 of the Jumpstart class, and I’m in floods of tears because it’s real now and I’m not lurking any more and I’m real. I thought I was broken but maybe I’m not? Sobbing with reality and relief that I don’t have to fight any more.

My longest time sober was about 10 years ago. I’ve always feared quitting outright because I hated that time, it was boring and difficult and I thought that was difficult because I was sober. So I tried moderation, lots of different kinds of moderation, none of which have worked …

What’s different this time that gives me hope is that I’m not going to change anything in my life apart from this one thing. Everything is ok, I’m in an ok place. And I have support, I have asked for help and you have given it. Maybe it will happen to me this time, because I can see the future in you and your sober penpal gang and it doesn’t look so different from who I am now.

I can’t tell you how many times I gave that three year old a doughnut since I returned to day one. Sooooo many doughnuts, soooooo many tantrums. Day one is today again, and it’s shit. I don’t want to be here any more.

And I laugh/sobbed so hard at the corn on the cob thing. Yes, that’s it entirely. I can’t MAKE myself be like that about booze. You’re like that or you’re not. But I’m getting into scary never territory again so I’m going to return to the fact that I’m not drinking now. Not today.

Thank you Belle :-)”

[update: she’s on day 396 today, just celebrated one year sober]

if you don’t start, you’re not travelling

This is one minute message 251. In bed this morning, scratchy throat, very tired, I thought, ok, i’ll record a one minute message for today. and this is it.

To hear this message, play below. nothing to download. just press play.

If you don’t start, you’re not travelling. and there’s something very special and exciting about being underway. even if it takes a while. even if the changes are small. even if.


QUESTION: If we had to make a bumper stick out of one phrase in this podcast, what would it be? I’ll pick the 11th new comment, and you’ll get an audio bonus gift. New comments are held in moderation, so you won’t know who’s number 11. so submit one now.

11TH COMMENT (that actually chose a phrase from the audio):
Flyaway: “When shit doesn’t work, change something”


and in case you hate listening to audios, here’s the transcript:

Yesterday somebody sent me an email and they said: “I’m always looking through your sober messages for little nuggets on how you problem solve things in regular life.” And I’m like, what? How I do what? I wasn’t even aware that I was doing it, so it means when I’m narrating my life, I’m saying things that are interesting — which of course is always shocking. Because you know how on the inside of your head, stuff just occurs, right? You’ve got a voice in your head, it says things. Some of it we listen to, some of it we don’t. I have a voice in my head that tells me if this doesn’t work then try something else.

It has been very shocking to me in the process of doing the sober work to find that there are people out there who don’t have that same voice that says, “if you can’t find a solution doing it this way, do something else.” And so I started to research it. Because it turns out it’s a thing. It’s sort of like having brown hair or a cleft chin; just don’t have any sense of “what, you don’t hear this?” You know what it’s like over-drinking, you’re like, “what you mean, you don’t hear the voice that says drink now? Fuck, I thought everybody heard it. I thought everybody drank like me.” And then somebody points out some part of your personality and it’s kind of humbling and strange at the same time, because it forces me then to think about how I think, which of course is just exhausting.

I’m actually recording this from bed. It is 9:30 am. I have been awake for 2 hours. I have done nothing. I had a very busy catering day yesterday and today I’m having a coma. Although at least my coma has been coherent, upright, well no, prone, not upright. I’m in bed with my decaf coffee. I know, you want to hear a story about why I drink decaf. You can listen to a podcast about orchids. Because if I have caffeine, the top of my head comes off. And maybe that’s one of those lessons that when shit doesn’t work, you change something. Always trying to tweak and find a better solution, find a better way. How do you get from point A to point B?

The point of this video…video ha ha ha ha…the point of this audio today is to say … yeah I don’t know what I’m trying to say. I’m now trying to tie it all up in a small thing when really I have a lot more to say so now I can’t … that was me just self-editing to decide whether or not I was going to talk for longer or for less. I think I’ll do less … Yeah, I’m still trying to find the way to wind it up in a tight little bundle. You know with something cute and pithy and I’m not coming up with it.

If what you’re trying isn’t working, you try something else. And if that doesn’t seem evident, then you follow somebody else’s lead who has done that exact thing. Because I think this is a skill you can learn obviously or I wouldn’t talk about it everyday. I think it’s entirely possible to learn what other people do and then do it. Not just like learn how somebody runs a marathon and then you do it, but learn how to speak a language, you learn it from somebody else and you can pick up ways of thinking from other people. Like if you go to law school, you learn how to form a certain kind of argument and you learn how to write a certain kind of document. You can learn how to think a certain way.

So is it possible to change your thinking about this idea of I don’t know what to do next? I think, I think, I think there is. People say “oh it’s creativity,” but for me it’s not creativity, it’s desperation. It’s absolute, abject despair. Like, “I don’t want this thing, I want something else. I don’t want this thing, whatever it is, whatever’s happening in my life, whatever it is, I don’t want this debt, I don’t want this unhappiness in my marriage, I don’t want this child with really difficult behaviour, I don’t want this drinking thing to be robbing me of all of my energy.”

I’m only now coming to the realization after 5 years of doing this, when somebody else points it out to me, because I’m a slow learner, that there are two kinds of people in a situation like all the ones that I just described. There’s a person who can look at a situation and say, “OK I don’t like this. I wonder what I can do to change it, even marginally, even incrementally, even slowly. How can I be moving in the direction of changing it.” Or the other point of view is: “well this fucking sucks, this sucks, this fucking sucks, fuck, fuck, this fucking sucks, fuck this sucks, oh my god this sucks.”

Of course, there’s something very noble and proud about saying “this fucking sucks” because you get to stand there and say, “Look my life fucking sucks.” And people go: “oh yeah yeah, you’re right, if fucking sucks.” Nobody ever says to you, “Um what are you doing incrementally, day by day, 1% a day to improve this situation? What are you doing? Like, are you doing one day at a time sober so that at the end of the year, you have 365? And are you incrementally making some other kind of change to evolve in some other kind of way or are you standing around a) waiting to feel like it or b) waiting for some kind of large motivations so that you can change everything all at once because that really never works.”

We lack patience. No shit. But if you were to look ahead and say, “I want this thing in my life,” how do you even head off in that direction?

Because you know what, you’re travelling on a road anyway. You get up every day, you do your day, you make decisions every day about what’s going to happen today. And to some extent, you’re affecting what’s going to happen tomorrow by what you do today. If you’re going to have to get up and live your day every day anyway, what could you be incrementally doing to move some thing in a new direction. I don’t mean moving 10 things at once. And I don’t mean moving one thing ginormously. Because when you’re first sober, just being sober is the goal and that is your change per day to get a new result. But if you’re 200+ days sober, then what are you doing incrementally to build on your sober foundation and create something else.

There’s something that you can have, do, or be when you’re sober that you can’t do as a drinker. But it is very, very, very easy to stand still and say: “fuck, fuck, fuck this fucking shit.” First of all, it eliminates responsibility. It’s you saying “this happens to me.” Instead of you saying “I’m going to do 1% a day to make this different or better or go in a different direction.”

Like, your relationship has some kind of crap in it, so what are you doing 1% a day to move that in a better direction? What are you doing in terms of kindness every day to try to move that in a better direction? What are you doing in terms of, I don’t know, forgiveness or gratitude or making a lunch for somebody or back massages … what do people do for other people? Are you making the bed? Are you doing some of her chores that you always ask her to do or are you just doing some of them? Or are you walking around with a score card keeping score that she didn’t do this, so you’re not going to do that because she didn’t do this? That’s not 1% moving in a better direction.

You write a book a page a day, and you could be sober in a year a day at a time. You can make large, large changes in your life, slowly. But if you’re drinking, you’ve heard me say this before, if you’re drinking, you nail your foot to the floor in a room where you don’t want to be.

So what are you changing?

If the results you’re getting are not working, what are you changing every day, every day, what are you adjusting and changing and improving so that you move in a better direction? “Well, I’m too depressed because I’m too fat and I can’t go out.” Well what are you doing 1% a day. Can you walk from here to the end of the street and then back. And then tomorrow, walk, another block. And your answer then is: “well that will take too long, I need to feel better now.”

And I’m saying: there’s something really special in the process of being on the road to the improvement. Because then you’re underway. You’re taking action. You are deciding what happens next. That’s different than sitting on the couch saying, “this is all happening to me.” What are you doing, small, incrementally, tiny to improve whatever it is? What are you doing?

There’s my One Minute Message and it’s only, you know, ten minutes and thirty seconds. If I’m going to do a daily One Minute Message they really need to be short and sweet. Can I do this in a short and sweet version? OK, here’s the One Minute Message of this message:

If you feel trapped and stuck
One thing you can do to make some improvement
Is to slowly go in the direction where you want to go
And try little things to adjust and move
And move forward
And move forward.

Because there’s something magical about moving forward
Even if it’s not very fast.

And to be obsessed with some magic right day
Or some magic right feeling
Or to be obsessed with I need to make a dramatic change
So I can’t make small change because it won’t add up fast enough.
What I say to that is, you get up and you live your day every day anyway.
You might as well be making tiny, incremental changes so that you’re going somewhere.

I think this is called living with intention. What do I know?  I don’t listen to enough Louise Hay, is that her name? Hay House. So for today, I want you to look around and figure out what is the 1% you can do on that. You can clean one drawer. I know it’s not the whole house, but you can do a drawer. And you can make your wife’s lunch. I know it doesn’t solve all of the marriage problems, but you can make her lunch. And you can do that stack of filing that’s sitting beside your co-worker’s desk. And I know it doesn’t solve all of your animosity and your difficult relationship with her, but it’s a start. It’s a piece. Because you know what, if you don’t start, you’re not travelling.

I deteriorated out of a One Minute Message …

If you don’t start, if you don’t start, you’re not travelling. And if you’re not travelling, you’re not going to the new thing that you want to go to. If you don’t start, you’re not travelling. And I must tell you that ‘travelling’ needs to be spelled with 2 L’s, that’s how Canadians spell it. Sorry, I insist. If you don’t start, you’re not travelling, 2 L’s. I don’t really know why I felt the need to say that, except that I want you to see it in your head the way I see it in my head. How’s that for a One Minute Message. My god. OK. Alright fine. OK good byyyeee!

monday update: some days suck rocks

Today i want to share with you a link to a short Monday Update message. This is omm249. I was walking this morning, and thought i’d tell you about my shit day. AND also update you on what’s coming up this week.

To hear this Monday message, play below. nothing to download. just press play.



p.s. listen and then let me know if this monday update thing works for you as a little kick to begin the week. hugs

links mentioned in the audio:

photo that goes with the end of the audio:


and in case you hate listening to audios, here’s the transcript:

Good morning this is Belle speaking. I am recording this while walking on the street. I am on the shady side of the street because it is plenty warm today. I wanted to send a message directly to you to say that even if you’re having a shit day, it’s still OK.  You’re here and you’re facing forward and it doesn’t matter if you’re having a shit day. It just doesn’t. And I say this to you because I’m having a shit day and it’s not even noon yet. And I’ve tried to do 3 things this morning that just have not worked, at all, the way that I wanted them to. Including, you know, inviting my husband to join me while I was sitting in the sun having a coffee, trying to change my mood, and he said, no, because you know, he was working. Funny how that is.

I want to give you a head’s up of what’s happening this week. I will be sending out 1 to 2 emails a day for people who are on the email list, which must be you because you’re listening to this. I will have 3 new One Minute Messages this week. I’m opening a new session of the Sober Jumpstart Class on Friday, September 1st. There will be 25 spots open. And I will be working through the Labour Day long weekend to get everybody started and running well. If you’re not on the waiting list, you can do that at

If you are sober longer, like 200+ days (I just crossed to the sunny side of the street). If you are a sober senior — that’s wrong, right — senior’s wrong, because you’re not like 75 years old. Let’s see, if you’re a sober oldie, if you’re a sober … I don’t know, I’ll have to come up with a name for you. If you’re 200+ days, I have a brand new group 4-week class, starting on September 18th, which is a Monday. You must be 200 consecutive days sober in a row to register. No exceptions. It is specifically about the idea of worth (I can’t tell how good this microphone is when I’m walking). It’s specifically about worth, and how to build a life on top of this sober foundation that you have. So you could be 1 or 2 or 3 or 4 years sober, but you must be 200 days continuously, plus. Again, this is the “worth” class — I have to come up with another name for it. The Sober Senior Module 1: Worth. Because, you know what, we get so hung up on, “who am I now that I’ve quit drinking. Like, what kind of a life am I building.” And we forget that, well, I’m not going to give it all away … we forget that there is some worth to us, even now, even still, even before the big thing happens. So we’re going to come at it from a point of strength.

So that’s it. Two things this week, two big things. A bunch of small things of course, all the emails, some One Minute Messages. If you are a podcast subscriber, you will get another podcast. I think you got one on Friday. You’re going to get another one tomorrow. I’ve stepped it up, and you’re definitely getting 2 new podcasts per week now. Lots of new content. Lots of things to listen to while you’re commuting.

And the 2 big things are the Jumpstart Class on Friday, and the Sober Senior Worth workshop, which is a 4-week workshop, which begins September 18. That’s it.

I’ve now turned the corner. There’s a guy on the side of the road here. He’s got 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 chairs set up on the side of the road to advertise ebeniste — wood working and reupholstering. So, it’s like a little mini store. It’s just these chairs. I’m going to take a picture of it … He wants to know if I can take the picture with him and the chairs. I’ll do that now and I’ll send this to you. OK, Bye!

So at the end of that, he wanted me to send it to him, but he didn’t have an email address, so he had me take a photograph of his personal ID, which seems like a violation of privacy. And now there’s somebody else taking his picture and for one second I can’t even tell if he works there, or if he’s just a guy standing in front of the guy who works there. OK, doesn’t matter. It still works for a good story, right? I got a good photo.

If you like these Monday morning-get your week started-tell you what’s coming up thing, if this is something you’d like me to do on a regular basis, just drop me a message. Talk to you soon. Bye! OK Bye!