Solstice to Solstice 2019

From Sober in Richmond (The Solstice Guy): “I started my 100 Day challenge on the Solstice [and am celebrating 4.5 years sober on June 21st] … If there is anyone out there who needs some motivation to start – perhaps they can do the Solstice to Solstice. It really helped me to have the power of the whole darn earth behind me rather than a day or date on a calendar … It’s an incredibly magical thing, the Solstice to Solstice!”

Imagine it’s the longest day of the year (Friday, June 21st in the northern hemisphere). Imagine you’re sober. June 21st can be your Day 1 or maybe it’s your Day 50. Or 400. Doesn’t matter. Can you see yourself sober on December 21st? Winter Solstice. Stand here. Look ahead 180 days. Because if you think the view from day 100 is great, wait until you see 180 days.

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I like the idea of having the ‘whole darn earth behind me’ – how about you?

say what you need … with a smile

from hollm (day 8):

“Belle, It’s hard when the doubters are your own family. My dad said “her not drinking will last about a week”. Makes me sad but also gives me the I’ll show you attitude. What a shitty thing to say. But it’s straight out of the mouth of a drinker.”

me: you can say to your dad “thanks for this. I’m not interested in your ideas unless you’re positive and supportive. if you’re going to be a shit, then i will see you less and less.” And then smile your biggest and best smile 🙂

hollm: “That’s pretty bold! But so true.”

me: i think the big smile would be the key part. and if he’s really being a shit to you, then he’s not worried about hurting your feelings. so you can be very matter of fact that you’d like cheerleading only please 🙂

hollm: “Yes obviously he isn’t worried about my feelings, so being honest with him is only fair!”

 


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this bracelet is for when your brain is worried about later. When wolfie says “you’ll never do this” you say “i’m staying here. i like being sober. i’m not going anywhere else.”

I got this message from Juliejean123: “I just wanted to check in and let you know how important my “stay here” bracelet has been for me on my sober journey. I have now been sober for 616 days!!! When I signed up for your 100 day challenge, I never thought I could make it 100 days or even 30 days for that matter. Yet, here I am at over 600! I owe a lot of this to sober treats, a lot of nights in the beginning of going to bed at 8 pm, an awesome sober penpal, and my bracelet. When I find myself feeling unsteady, uncomfortable, and just icky in my own skin I look at the bracelet on my wrist and remember to “stay here”. It reminds me to not future trip and not to look back on the past. To just simply stay here. I don’t go a day without wearing it. It has become that significant for me. A million thank you’s would not be enough 🙂 You are right, sober is better!! With love and thanks, juliejean123″ [update, she’s on day 1361 today]


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drinking bathwater

email from Hernoodlyness (day 6): 
“Tonight is regular Drinking Tuesday with my two very good friends. I bought them a bottle of wine (i think it is my turn), but also have my special drink ready. I need to tell them that I will not be drinking alcohol with them any more (well for at least 100 days), but that I would still love to have an evening once a week to catch up. I am a little anxious about their reactions, as I used to be the drinking friend. But I am hoping that I can also just be a very good friend. Perhaps even better, now that my attention is not focused on how much alcohol is left and if I have enough after they left.”

me: you’ll find it easier with your friends if you mention it in advance. like send a text that says “can’t wait to see you tonight, I’ve got the wine, I’m not drinking these days so I’ll have tonic for me but I can’t wait to hear about xx and yy. see you soon.” just be matter of fact about it. it makes it easier for when you see them face to face. huglets

hnn: “I emailed them like you suggested and ended it with a funny story about how I found my little M was in the bathtub this afternoon drinking bathwater out of his shoe. They cared more about the anecdote, than my actual non-drinking warning. I am pretty sure you are thinking: YUP! 🙂  Thanks for the great advice. No anxiousness here any more!”

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​exit the past situation. move into the new place. the door’s open. 


this is painting #399 here > https://gumroad.com/l/Exit-399

give up what doesn’t serve me

this is an email about how things grow and evolve. i was looking over some messages i received in 2013, about a year after i quit drinking, to see how much i’ve ‘bloomed’ since then. here’s one example:

october 9, 2013
email from E. “Hi Belle, I just want to say I got chills reading your post about opening a store! I’m not sure why exactly, there was just something so — touching on a dream — or something. And beautiful how things change and how you accept that thought so easily (it seems).
And on that note of changing dreams, I thought it was really interesting in a recent post how you mentioned you no longer write fiction. I am struggling with that one. I feel like it was this dream I always had and it’s soooo hard to let it go, but I just don’t think I like it, or that it’s good for me (it kind of makes me crazy) and I write in so many other capacities. I’m in another fiction class right now to give it one last shot to see if I want to or not, but I hope to hear from you or see a post on whether that was difficult to give up the fiction dream or if you let it go easily and what made that possible. I think the ability to allow oneself to change (including changing dreams) is so important but boy, can it be difficult!”

me: I’m big on giving up stuff that doesn’t serve me. but really the decision to not write fiction anymore wasn’t even really a decision. I just stopped. I never ‘had time’, I was always ‘busy with other things,’ and that’s it. years went by. then more years. now I realize that I wrote fiction to make other people happy. for me, it’s too solitary. and I’m not compulsive enough (i.e. I don’t get up every day just dying to write fiction). I do get up thinking about pie though. turns out I had to get sober and be 46 years old to figure out what I’m really called to do. I’m CALLED to and dream about cinnamon buns. and pie. and today I made sour cream coffee cake and bagels and lamb pot pies…

 


 

what’s interesting, of course, is that 4ish years later i WOULD start writing fiction again, sober fiction, about Rayna.

But i couldn’t see it then. i needed the space of being sober, measured in years, which eventually allowed the writing to come back in, on its own, without being forced.

It did NOT happen right away. i didn’t even predict it would happen at all.

i also found a way to make the fiction not solitary, by posting it live every day for people to read. and i found i way to make it ‘compulsive’ but committing to posting something every single day without skipping days.

the things i thought i couldn’t change, i could. the things i thought were fixed about writing fiction (solitary/not driven enough) i could change with external accountability. i know that’s not the way most people write books. it’s not the way most people do anything. but i know me. i do better when i think someone is paying attention. number of fiction books written without accountability over a period of 23 years? none. thought about it. didn’t do it. added daily accountability? wrote a first draft in 6 months.

tried to quit drinking on my own, I could get to 9 days.

add accountability? coming up on my seventh soberversary on july 1st.

but don’t get me wrong. accountability is hard. you have to reach out. you have to say you’ll do it. you have to show up. you have to allow yourself to be accountability. it’s scary to set it up. but it can help to get the thing done.

and i know, for me, i can’t do much without something external to me. it’s just how i’m wired. i can’t even apologize for it. it’s just who i am. i can do LOTS OF THINGS with accountability. I can do very little without.

i’d still like a blue bakery (i do love that photo). I’d also like to get fiction book #1 published, and start on #2. I’d like to have a radio show (!).

and my ongoing goal, often overriding others… is to sleep in.

maybe i’ll do all of them, just not at once. maybe if we’re sober for a longer period of time, there’s room to put the goals in.

and the space to let new, unimagined ones grow.

hugs from me xo

 


Question: If you were making a pledge today, and you could pick any number of days, then how long can you pledge to be sober for, for sure, starting today?

me, I can be sure, from today, that i’m not drinking until July 1st (my soberversary). for sure. for sure. no questions. i’m going to be sober longer than that, but i’m definitely 100% not drinking between now and then.

What about you? what’s your ‘for-sure-for-sure’ number of days you can be sober starting today?

~

“I know you’re chasing problems
But you’ve been running too long
It’s time that you come home my love
And stay here in the sun my love”


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be OK with you first


email from Sunshine (day 1):
“I want to try 30 days. Haven’t made it that far yet. Day 1 for me again.”

me: you can try for any number of days you like 😉 how about starting with 2 days, and then getting a nice sober treat! 

sunshine: “You never make me feel embarrassed or shitty about emailing you and keep me feeling encouraged. Thank u:)”

[update: she’s on day 446 today]


Question: If you were making a pledge today, and you could pick any number of days, then how long can you pledge to be sober for, for sure, starting today?

me, I can be sure, from today, that i’m not drinking until July 1st (my soberversary). for sure. for sure. no questions. i’m going to be sober longer than that, but i’m definitely 100% not drinking between now and then.

What about you? what’s your ‘for-sure-for-sure’ number of days you can be sober starting today?

~

“If you see a chance, take it …”
[original art here]


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The Thing isn’t in the Thing {Audio}

This is audio is about how the thing isn’t in the thing.

I talk about how your spouse is your peer and not your parent, and I happen to mention sorting laundry, burning toast, and hot turkey sandwiches.

Alcohol has done a good marketing job, in your head, in telling you that it seems like a good idea to drink… but I can verify, ​for sure, based on my inbox, that the first drink is a disappointment. and the thing isn’t in the thing…

This is the subject of a podcast (episode 293) sent to podcast subscribers.

I want you to hear the whole audio, even if you’re not a subscriber. So I’m going to load the entire thing below ​and leave it there for 48 hrs. ​

​​Listen in installments. Or get a cup of tea and do it all at once. There's something in here for you. I'm sure of it.

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​Sober Podcast 293. ​The Thing Isn't IN the Thing

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exit the past situation. move into the new place. the door's open. 

stuck in our head

we can get stuck in our head with the ‘drink-now’ voice. we can get stuck thinking that nobody understands, nobody cares, nothing will work. in fact, the ‘nothing’ language is wolfie speaking. because there ARE tools and supports. there are. there are things to do and try. sometimes it means doing 5+15 things together at the same time. sometimes THAT is what’s required. so you do it. cuz you keeping your head above water is the goal. and you alone in your head with a voice that thinks that drinking is a good idea? that’s too lonely.

even on weekends. even when everyone else around you is doing something else. it’s ok if you do what’s best for you. keep your head above water. reach for a flotation device…

 

drinking thinking

omm347.drinking.thinking

Drinking-thinking is different from sober-thinking. and your drinking-thinking is likely going to OBJECT to ideas suggested that come from sober-thinking. You have to be open enough to try the new things, even when your head disagrees.

(When i relisten to this audio clip below, i feel like it’s the KEY to what i’ve been saying lately. maybe condensed and compressed in a way that i haven’t said it before. it sounds ‘new’ or something …)

To hear this short audio message, press the blue button below. nothing to download. just press play.

Question: Did you hear something in this today? post a comment.

how to reframe celebrations

transcript from omm285. How to reframe celebrations

As you may know I do coaching calls with some of my pen pals or subscribers. You don’t actually have to be a pen pal to have a coaching call, but I do calls on the phone with people to talk about sober stuff and I had 3 calls today and each one of them presented a little nugget I think that I can talk about further as a One Minute Message.

The one I wanted to start with is: if you have a voice in your head that says for example, ‘I should be celebrating with alcohol’ …

There’s something to celebrate: job promotion, got through a hard thing, dealt with the kid thing, made the dentist appointment you didn’t want to make, your birthday. Doesn’t matter what it is.

But if your brain says, ‘I should be celebrating with alcohol’, my assignment to the person that I was talking to today, which I’m now going to share with you because you can do this too, is to do a little piece of writing, and write down 2 things.

#1 is to write down the dialog of what wolfie is telling you about how you need to celebrate with alcohol. What is the message that you get. What’s the wolfie message?

For example: How am I ever going to celebrate if I don’t have alcohol, a wedding toast won’t be the same unless I have champagne, it’s my birthday I deserve it.

What’s the language that wolfie is using?

#2 is to write down how you reframe the idea of celebrating without alcohol. What is the message you might give yourself instead?

For example: Turns out what I really want is a feeling of celebration, it doesn’t matter what’s in my glass.

And the reason I’m sharing this today is because I think that the coaching call today illuminated for both of us as we were speaking, that the reason I wanted her to write down the first part, which is – ‘what is wolfie saying’ – is to acknowledge that it exists. Not just to lay down new reframed ideas (ini concrete) on top of the old concrete, but to hear him out. What does he have to say? What is the message in there?

Because there’s nothing the matter with the message that says: “I need to celebrate.” The part of the message that needs to be dissected is: “I need to celebrate with alcohol.”

I think that wolfie’s message is exactly correct except for the word ‘alcohol’.
“I deserve it. It’s my birthday. I need to celebrate” … all of that is true. So you can’t dismiss that message in your head. You can’t dismiss it because it’s true.

The only part that’s incorrect is linking that to alcohol.

The wolfie voice that says: I deserve something, I need some me time, where’s my treat, where’s my celebration, how am I going to go to that wedding and not raise my glass … that’s all true, all valid and I think you need to acknowledge it.

Then the reframing part is where you simply change the word ‘alcohol’ for another word.

I needed a treat. I’m going to be at this wedding. I want to hold up my glass, so I’m going to hold up my glass with a tonic and a ginger ale because it turns out that what’s in my glass is not that important.

Or it’s my birthday. How am I going to celebrate my birthday without alcohol? And wolfie will say, ‘You know it’s not the same. Birthday’s require alcohol.’ And so you acknowledge that and you say, ‘I really want my birthday to be special. I have to think of a way to make it special. I have to keep all of the same feeling of celebration just not with alcohol.’

When you’re doing reframing, and whenever you’ve got the wolfie voice running around in your head, you can acknowledge it.

It’s sort of like when the 3 year runs into the room and says but mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy I want a donut. And you don’t say, ‘Fuck you, have a steak’. You don’t say, ‘That’s a ridiculous idea, of course you’re not having a donut’.

What you say is: “I hear you. I know you think you want a donut right now because you want some kind of a treat and I totally acknowledge that you have been good, cleaned up your room, whatever the kid thinks he deserves the donut for.”

You would acknowledge all of it. “Yes, and it turns out there’s other ways to get a treat that aren’t a donut, and you’re totally right you do deserve some kind of a treat. So let’s get a sticker and put it on the chart and let’s get some carrot sticks and dip them in hummus and how about you come and help me make supper. Those are all celebration-y treats.”

I don’t think you can dismiss the original message. It’s sort of like saying ‘I want love and attention so I try to make my boss notice me.’ There’s nothing the matter with wanting love and attention. It’s the ‘but I want it from my boss’ part that you may need to disengage and plug in a different phrase.

So if your head is saying “the only way I can celebrate is with alcohol,” look at the message and figure out how you can say the exact same thing but put something else in there in the place of alcohol.

There. I’m leaving you right there. How’s that for a six-minute One Minute Message. OK, good byyyyeeeee!

things larger than elvis :)

memphis. very warm (32C). the tour of Sun Studio (birth place of rock and roll) yielded a very interesting post-tour conversation with our guide ‘G’. we were the last ones in the room (with the famous microphone, and the x on the floor where elvis stood), and in making conversation i asked G about his radio voice, his tour-guide persona, and i asked him about his way of being entertaining and commanding authority at the same time. he talked about radio and podcasts, i said i did a podcast, he asked what about … and i told him. he asked for the website name for ‘friends’. said he knew a few people who’d gotten sober after a low bottom. i said that some sites have resources to help quit drinking before a bottom. to stop early. to remove the shit that doesn’t serve us. he shook my hand. i put some tip money in his tour guide container.

stuff like this changes you. changes me. am i a super huge elvis fan? my husband is. i go for him AND i learn things along the way. large things. things maybe larger than elvis 🙂


if booze is an elevator that only goes down, you can get off and stay off. this is Exit in mandarin. photo taken in the memphis backyard of our dumpy rental house.

here’s the direct link > https://gumroad.com/l/Exit-391