“I relapsed this weekend. everytime I have to admit that to you, I’m afraid this will be the time that Belle says I’m hopeless and to go waste someone else’s time with my half-assed attempts to be sober. despite all evidence to the contrary, i’ve realized that I can’t drink at all …
I want to laminate my 100 day sober pledge on a card. On the other side, i’d like to put something really powerful that would deter me from giving in to Wolfie (a phrase, quote, blogpost, image, whatever). the next time i’m around people and cant go to the sober online community or crawl in bed & hide, I could go hide in the bathroom, pull out my secret weapon (my laminated magic card) and look at it until I feel stronger.
What do you read and/or think about that gives you the most strength or power over Wolfie?”
I’m not going to say hopeless at all. what I might do is ask what you’d like to change this time so that you can have better support to help you so that you can get some sober momentum. you know, the try harder not different thing.
my answer to your laminated card question would be to write: “It’s time for me to take care of me. I didn’t get enough before. I keep waiting for someone else to do it. I’m going to do it for myself. And it’s about time.”
and you? what would you put on the back of your card to remind you why you’re sober?