from my inbox:
Alicia (day 68): … I was tired beyond belief, and i started torturing myself with doubt, with logistical questions about HOW it will all go (not one of these questions needs to be answered now, or even for a few months, or maybe even ever), and IF i was really good enough, and WHO did i think i was taking this on and etc etc etc.
I stopped and thought about what Belle might have to say about this. In the past, i would have gone completely off the rails, but last night i reminded myself of all the good, reminded myself that i was too tired to be thinking straight, and too tired to treat myself with kindness. i didn’t want to drink — but i was completely undermining myself in a different way. just the idea of you, Belle, and the wisdom you have shared on your blog, was enough to snap me out of it.
this morning, i’m back to thinking that i’m on the right track professionally, and that i will be of help to many people once things get going.
i have been struggling with this pattern of self-doubt for my entire life. i’m not sure i’ve ever seen it as clearly as i do now.”
me: really this is very lovely, thanks for sharing. you sound like you’re definitely learning how to take care of you 🙂 even when that means simply saying “i’m not going to think about this now.” overwhelm is a big trigger, so managing overwhelm is huge 😉 hugs from me