sorry sorry for mentioning my health issues in the last post — i just wanted to make a parallel to sobriety. don’t be worried about me 🙂 i’m being well taken care of by a lovely socialized health care scheme! let me close this by saying that the results of my 24 hour monitoring were not what we hoped, and so now we’re changing my drugs (again) and scheduling another hospital procedure for a month’s time. The doctor actually said to me “you’re not easy.” will this get fixed i ask. yes, he says.
in the meantime i can run, do my job, cater some upcoming meals for tourists passing through town, and make 600 cupcakes for a big party in a few weeks. i’m not unwell. and i did begin planning for our summer trip, but the house we want to rent is only available in august, the dog-hottest weeks of the year for that part of the world (40C hot). so maybe september is looking better after all… will wait and see. have plenty to worry about right in front of me. Stay Here, you might say 🙂
Interestingly, when i got home from the very late cardiologist appt (he saw me on a rush at the end of his day, so it was 10:30 pm by the time i got home), i came home to Mr. B. making supper. we sat the dining room table — hooray — and had a talk about stuff. medical and otherwise.
I said: Honestly, i’m so tired, hungry, and disappointed. I think that wine would be a good idea.
Not really a craving, more of a thought.
Mr. B: “I wouldn’t drink now.”
me: no you probably wouldn’t. you’re nearly at your one-year mark.
Mr. B: “I wouldn’t want you to drink.”
Mr. B: “We used to drink to relax. Now if we drank, we’d just be thinking about everything you would be giving up. Your blog …” And then he says in english: “and all de sober girls.”
So you see, even Mr. B, the man with no real wolfie, knows that being sober is a place you don’t easily turn away from. Fear of regret. Consequences of taking one drink. we’re one drink away from a new day 1. Not Today.
Mr. B. gives me the hairy eyeball.
me: don’t worry about me. i can’t drink. i’m on beta blockers. and I won’t drink anyway. I’ve got too much to lose.
Happy Day 50 to Mel P!
Happy Day 50 to Erin Marie!
Happy Day 100 to Jz!
Happy Day 100 to TheFace!
Happy Day 100 to Wanting to be a Sober Mom!
Happy Day 100 to Gail!
Happy Day 180 to Cat Girl!
Happy Day 180 to Julieanne!
Happy Day 200 to Nic!
Happy Day 200 to Jules!
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Happy Day 300 to Sara St!