Audio: Dehydrate the Wolf

i have an audio podcast subscription thingy, and this is podcast #10.

In podcast, I initially planned to read an archived blog post but (as usual) I end up telling stories instead.

I talk about the wolf (as in fuck you wolfie), where he came from, hibernation, and pillows.

Post a comment below after you’ve listened 🙂

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Belle

I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I’m tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

9 thoughts to “Audio: Dehydrate the Wolf”

  1. You cannot believe how timely your message is today. You see, that damn wolf was waiting for me when I got home last night. Hubby was asleep (passed out????), and the bottle of bourbon was there with wolfie beckoning me. So I fell off the wagon, and upon waking up this morn was not only angry with myself, but realized I didn’t like my actions very much. Thus I am very grateful for your message. It made me realize that I am not alone in thinking about a drink (or 2, 3, or even 4 if I don’t pass out first).

    However, I am not giving up and if you will put me back on the accountability list again I would appreciate it. Today I start that 100 day challenge again.

    I often look at my friends that do not drink and see they are enjoying themselves, and realize I too have more fun when not drinking–so why the hell do I let myself down and take those drinks (I ask myself).

    Sorry for my rambling – and thanks for listening.

    Have a wonderful day – I intend to.

    fr

    1. That’s the attitude. You can do it, fr. Tell the Wolf to go away while you have a long shower and a cup of hot chocolate, my go-to drink when feeling unsteady. Day One is here and that’s great. We’re here for you.

  2. Thanks Belle this was just what I needed to hear! I’m at day 18 today and feeling great, my mind is clear, I am in the moment with my famliy, feeling good about getting up in the morning. But I have just noticed the Wolf making new attempts to derail me. I suppose because his attempts during the witching hour and at restaurants or in the store shopping and seeing the wine have failed. I have told him FUW and kicked him in the head. He is trying a new method, the moderation telling me that since I have done so well this far that I can control my amounts of wine and one glass here and there won’t hurt. Ha I’m not that stupid but now I have to fine tune myself and remember that he comes out of nowhere wearing different clothes and is a tricky sob but I’m bigger and stronger than him and I won’t let him defeat me……. One is never enough and a thousand is too many…
    Stay strong . Niki

  3. Dehydrate the Wolf Podcast is very timely for me too! I have quit drinking so many times, I could go about a week before I would tell myself, “See, you are not an Alcoholic, you can control your drinking.”
    And then I would choose MODERATION, just like all the normal people that drink. I would have 1 glass of wine with dinner. Yep, I can drink in moderation; I do not NEED that drink.
    Until….I was always looking for times to be moderate. I could have just one nightcap at bedtime because normal people have a drink in the evening. Of course, happy hour on occasion is fine; lots of normal people do that. Oh yeah, 1 beer at 2pm on Saturday afternoon is a great reward for getting the weekend chores done, and so on and so on and so on…
    I could drink moderately every single day which meant my drinking was back to way out of control.
    I hate that I am an alcoholic, but I love that I am sober today.

  4. Good morning! Just what I needed to start my Saturday . Day 21, signed up for 100 day. Realized I wasn’t ready to start drinking in just a little over a week from now, as my original goal was 30days. At first 100 days seemed frightening, but wolfie is too loud still and he must be dehydrated. Thank you belle.

  5. Day 11. Still here, had such a rough night, but kept telling Wolfie to FO. Gods grace and your support means I’m still sober today. Thanks for your honesty, your posts and your support! Means the world.

  6. Just like other people who have commented, this is EXACTLY what I needed to hear tonight!! My husbands friend came over to watch a basketball game tonight, and not knowing about my being sober, brought a bottle of liquor. My husband being the great guy he is, told him “we” aren’t drinking (even thought I know he was just saying that to help me out). But ever since just seeing that bottle, that a-hole wolfie has been screaming at me! I decided to hide out in my bedroom and read your blog- and so glad I did. If wolfie wants to fight tonight fine- but I’m gonna win!! Thank you Belle!

    Jewels

  7. Love this! My time and energy is going towards cleaning out my kitchen cupboards today. I am removing a bunch of crap that I don’t use so I can be organized. I am juicing, making smoothies and looking forward to feeling better all the time. Day 55.

  8. Vis-a-vis sobriety is better than the alternative; I quote Hunter Thompson(?); life is a bitch and then you die. Also, what us old dudes know in our hearts; getting old is vastly better than the alternative. So, what I’m trying to say; life just is. You take it a day at a time. You deal with the ups and downs. Unless you want to die or be brain dead which is a distinct possibility with alcohol; you stay present and take your punches. It’s hugely difficult even for sober people but we have no other choice. Do we?

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