Happy 100 days to Lime Tree! … Happy 100 days to Melinda! … Happy 100 days to Maya June!
Ever since i decided to do some small bit of sober coaching, i’ve had the usual weird feelings. Is it right to charge for this, how much should i charge, what about the people who can’t afford it. Is it feasible that this can become my one job.
Mostly i’ve been just doing bits and pieces, and then waiting. Do something else, and then wait again. Waiting (i think) for inspiration, ideation, confirmation.
One of the reasons a sober chick like me writes a blog, is because i’ve got stuff in me that needs to come out; to put it another way: writing is how i explain things to myself. “How will i know what I think, until i read what i’ve written?” (Faulkner quote, sort of).
What i’ve discovered in recording audio postcards, is that speaking the sober messages is soothing. And that listening to the audio again, after i’ve recorded it, is like hearing it for the first time. It’s like … well, it’s like it’s not me, not my voice. It’s like a message from somewhere else. A message to me.
so starting a few weeks ago, I recorded a couple of audio postcards, posted them here on the blog, and then felt like i wanted to record them more often, maybe every couple of days, but didn’t want to fill up the blog with lots of rambling.
So i created a subscription podcast thing, and put all of the newly recorded podcasts on one page, so that subscribers can see them all at once, can listen, re-listen, download, whatever.
But the weirdness, for me, continues to be something along the lines of… i’m recording stuff that speaks to me. then i’m putting it on a locked site that only a handful of people can access.
And yes, while i understand the nature of earning money (i have a business or two), there continues to be endless cyclings of thoughts in my head about charging for what happens on this blog (or for accessory stuff that happens because of this blog).
Yes, i understand the arguments about “belle you should earn something for your effort” …
… but as soon as i create a paid thing, like the sober audio postcards, i get weird.
So i’m writing today to try to figure out WHY.
I LOVE recording the audios. I am currently trying to limit myself to once every 2-3 days, but could probably do one a day (even paid subscribers probably don’t want so many – and what if my idea source runs out, better to be ‘moderate’ in my approach so i don’t burn out/run out).
I really LOVE doing the audios. I love recording them, i love listening to them again (i hear something new every time).
It’s like i’m ‘receiving’ a message, and then i get to listen to the message as if for the first time.
I also really love sharing the messages. I get emails like this one from Lex: “Oh boy Belle, I wonder how many people have said that the podcast was like perfect for me?”
so here’s where I’m at today. To share or not to share. How much to share. what to charge for. how many people to reach. who’s excluded.
ok. anyway. long story. not even saying much.
To try to bridge the gap, in some small way, I want to put up an extract today from Sober Postcard #2 that is part of paid subscription.
This audio extract is the first 2 minutes of a longer 8.5 minute audio.
You can listen. And let me know what you think. About everything.
About everything. Divine guidance requested.
Original source for the story, used with permission