Gindy reflects on 100 day sober …

Gindy is a Team 100 member (day 106) and I asked her to share a bit about what it was like to hit Day 100:

Gindy: Things have definitely changed for me in 100 days, but, more than that, most things have stayed the same. I still have the same job, same husband, same dogs, same car. The laundry still needs to be done, the house fixed, dinner prepared, overtime hours put in though on salary, and bills need to be paid.

My biggest accomplishment, so far, has been learning to balance all this in a healthy way. I still have meh days, difficult clients, and three places to be at once. At 5:00 I used to scream “pour yourself a glass of wine – you EARNED it today!” When in reality, once a glass was poured, nothing else was accomplished. The glass turned into a bottle, then often into another. With the next morning’s hangover, I ended up wasting the first half of the day unaccomplished and further set my agenda back.

I still have a long way to go, but I’m happy. I can’t control tomorrow, it’s coming regardless of anything I do. I’m living for today, and making a point to take time for me when I need to. My 100-day treat came in the mail today. I bought 20 sample-size perfumes – I may not have been able to decide on one, but at least I know better than to wear them all at once 😉

Belle

I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I'm tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

11 thoughts to “Gindy reflects on 100 day sober …”

    1. thank you for taking the time to write this. May you find your “signature scent” as an old colleague of mine used to call it. If you are up for it, I’d be interested to hear about anything you find inherently rewarding about not drinking now. For me, sometimes – just the fact that I know that nothing I did/did not do or say in a day is the result of using alcohol…feels good. Very small thing, but – still feels…grounding.

  1. Gindy-atta girl. Life does go on, as you stated so clearly, and it goes on with regularity and sanity and peace in our hearts and love in our relationships. Real love based on real actions that make right. It’s a new way of being and it suits you just fine, my lady.

  2. Haha! I love love this last sentence – brought a big grin on my face,
    “I bought 20 sample-size perfumes – I may not have been able to decide on one, but at least I know better than to wear them all at once ;)”

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