Belle, what do you tell a young divorced mom of two kids, who knows inside her drinking is not normal? The mom who has been reading your blog for a while now, after finding your blog from reading other blogs about woman and their drive to stay sober. Who knows a 100 day challenge will be, in fact a challenge? The past few years have been getting worse, she never drank daily. Now its 1-2 bottles a day, most often passing out and not remembering going to bed. Who has hidden bottles in the trash, cabinets, and finds glasses in strange places the next day. Tell her she will survive and still have fun at parties, gatherings without drinking when everyone else is? Tell her that her relationship with her bf won’t change b/c he will be drinking and she will not. Who is a daughter of an alcoholic mom who quit drinking more than 30 years ago. Who no longer can get up and workout daily @ 5am b/c she is hungover. Who is scared to tell the world she has a problem or to tell her kids she is a failure b/c she can’t handle her alcohol consumption. How do you tell her that it isn’t just a phase she is going thru? So what do you tell a lurker of your blog to convince her it’s time to sign up for the challenge when I am already thinking I will fail and never make it 100 days???? ~ thanks, lurker.
i have to say first that i love the way Lurker refers to herself in third-person: “what would you tell a woman who …” cuz don’t we all do that – consciously or unconsciously? We distance ourselves, talk about ‘someone else’. it’s the stereotype of going to the doctor and saying “i have a friend who has a problem…” But frankly, it’s a safer way to ask a question. Imagine how brave Lurker is to even ask this question, to type it up and email it to a complete stranger, and say “can i be helped or am i beyond helping” (which is what i think she’s really asking).
here’s my answer:
my dear, I would tell her that she is much stronger than she thinks she is, and that the booze itself can make her feel like she can’t do it. and that once the booze is removed, the self-esteem and the will and the determination come back, too. and why would I lie about that 🙂 us sober girls are not some secret club. we have removed the booze and found something really cool inside.
of course you feel like you might fail. but some things would be different this time. you’d have some sober penpals to talk to. me and others if you want them. you’ll have blogs to read and comment on. you’ll have support.
and man-oh-man I think we can move mountains with support 🙂 alone? you’ve tried that already … with support? a whole new adventure 🙂
but really, I’d tell her that if she has tried other shit that hasn’t worked, it might be a time to try some new shit – like some continuous days of sobriety – to see how she feels when the booze is gone 🙂 She’s going to like it. double your money back 🙂
love, belle xo
ps/ there’s a woman in the group who’s been in and out of treatment, marriage in jeopardy, who found it hard to commit to 4 hrs at a time, let alone days. she emailed me every 4 hours during her first days. Today she emailed me this: “10 days, double digits! Holy shit. Well, I have been here before. Here in the sense of 10 days sober (not many times). But I’ve never been HERE. Never with this strength and energy. Never with the resolve I feel.” Another woman, once she got about 14 days sober, turned a corner and emails every now and then to say she’s fine, but isn’t feeling scared anymore. Someone else is on day 118. And me, personally, i’m in no way permanently ‘safe’ but I am on day 3xx today.
edit: here’s her response:
Reading your email, I cried b/c a complete stranger has faith in me when I don’t myself. THANK YOU for responding. Everything I have done worthwhile or excelled at, I had support. I often can’t make big or sometimes even small decisions (which I never noticed until recently) without support. I’m thinking it’s time to ask for a little support. Funny, my oldest son who is almost 14 said to me last week, “Mom, why not let someone help you once in a while” and that was about something so little, taking up an offer [for a drive] b/c I had to go into work early. Even my son knows I am not one to ask for help. Thanks, Lurker.
Team 100 update: 90 members, welcome to Rebecca (65), Sara (9), and Suzanne (2). Happy days to Jen & Debra (5 months today!), Lynda (and Mr. Lynda) (70), Ellen (40 yesterday), DDG (70), Brandy (20), Lane (50 yesterday), Mr. Belle (40), Katie (7), Debbie (14), Allison (30 yesterday), Allie (7), Chelsie, Anna & Erika (21 yesterday), Helene, Mae, Leah & Elle (14 yesterday), Sam (10), Mel & Zenmeg (7 yesterday).