musical bits for Monday

I have three musical bits — hip hop, Aerosmith, and Plumb — sent to me by Lane (37), Jen (106), and MG (6)…

Lane sent me a link to this video, gotta love the chorus!

 

When Jen recently celebrated 100 days, I asked her if she could describe how it felt to be 100 days sober.

When I walked into rehab three months ago, this day of course wasn’t even on my radar. Back then, getting through the next 24 hours was all I could handle. I can’t really say when I was finally able to believe that things were going to be ok again. I’m still hesitant to jump into that fire. I had failed myself so many times before that hope seemed a dangerous indulgence for me…

They tell you in rehab never get too comfortable in your recovery success. It’s that “I got this” attitude that can whack you at the knees at any time. So, as the days pile up, and life gets better little by little, I’m starting to feel comfortable saying I think I’m going to be ok now. Of course, I’ll always either be in recovery or be addiction for the rest of my life. And right now, I’m in recovery and hope to stay here until I take my last breath on earth.  I carry no shame about being an alcoholic anymore. There, see? I said it out loud! I’m an alcoholic and I can’t drink responsibly. BUT, I can live my life responsibly and that means recovery work, keeping my eyes on my own paper, and not living in the past, but never forgetting it.

… There isn’t enough being said or celebrated about “making it through”. All of us out here need examples of real life people who carry messages of hope, people like yourself and your blog about your journey. This thing you do is courageous, and needed, and appreciated. Keep doing it, Belle! Really. I know I will do what I can to help erase the stigma surrounding addiction so that there is less fear for those who suffer.

My favorite recovery song right now is Amazing by Aerosmith. The chorus sums it all up beautifully:

It’s amazing
in the blink of an eye, you finally see the light
Oh, it’s amazing
when the moment arrives and you KNOW you’ll be alright
Yeah it’s amazing
and I’m saying a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight

 

And this song sent to me by MG:

No matter what you believe, no matter what kind of music you think you like, you might want to give these ‘sober’ songs a listen 🙂

Belle

I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I’m tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

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