tuesday weigh-in

day 45. all is well. i haven’t had any of the “holy shit i had a drink” dreams. Instead i dreamt that i was handed a glass, and had a sip of wine and then spit it out, shouting to the hostess who served it to me: “I don’t drink!”

not only is “all well” with me today, but i’d like to continue feeling like this please. yesterday and today (so far) have been surprisingly settled, calm, happy, even days. Better than i’ve felt in a LONG time. Maybe the best that  i’ve felt, ever. happy but not manic. content but not wacky. just good.

Now let’s talk about the 3 very small slices of chocolate cake i had yesterday. miniscule, really, but 3 nonetheless. I did mention that i wanted to do some baking during this vacation, and yesterday i got down to business.

i know that running 5 days a week, at my slow pace and for short distances, is all about mood control and not about weight management. I’m completely fine with that. I love running, and I don’t need to change anything about how i’m doing it. But my level of running does not permit me to eat ANYTHING i want.

yes, early days of quitting booze meant that i really didn’t have any choice. I needed the sugar and the calories and i needed it a lot.

but today is day 45 and i’m feeling good. so i’m going to slowly and gently begin to rein in the cake.

need a t-shirt made up:

“Must Eat Less Cake”

on my run today, i decided it will be best (for me) if i do something ‘out loud’ and accountable.  Since i know from the law of attraction that what we focus on EXPANDS, then i will focus on pounds lost, so that i can watch that number grow.

Since quitting booze 45 days ago, as of today, Tuesday morning, I am down 2.2 pounds. not bad considering said cake. Every Tuesday morning for the next several weeks, i will post my total weight loss so that I can watch the number increase … sort of like watching my sober days increase.  My current sober goal is 90 days (and beyond). my current weight goal is 15ish pounds (possibly beyond, i’ll see when i get there).

If you’re interested in joining me, you can go and weigh yourself now (2.2 pounds = 1 kilo). Yes, you can weigh yourself now, even if you’ve just eaten. Think how low the number will be by comparison next tuesday when you weigh yourself first thing : ) There’s no right time to start. There’s just now, and i’m starting here. i didn’t want to take on too much in the first 45 days, but now i feel OK with charting my numbers.  nothing strenuous. no big diet. just conscious awareness. and mindfulness.  Are you gonna join me?

 

Belle

I want to put this online, to hold myself accountable. I want to document the noise in my head. I’m tired of thinking about drinking. date of last drink: june 30, 2012

6 thoughts to “tuesday weigh-in”

  1. There we are again in the same place thinking its time to tackle the eating/sugar/weight issue. Its getting to be uncanny. I am happy to post my weight loss, but to be honest, dont really feel I need to lose more than 2 kilos, but that is quite tough for me! But its more about eating well and feeling good and not replacing one addiciton with another. Maybe in addition to weight loss issue we should have a “star” system? 5 stars means a good week in terms of good eating, irrespective of weight. 1 means its been a total sugar binge. And in between is a bit of a mix.

  2. Hi belle. I’m in for sure. I definitely lost some pounds since my quit date Prob around 4. I want to be down another 10. I’m at camp and dont have a scale so I’ll have to wait till I get back to officially weigh in. I definitely lost inches especially my beer belly area. I love not feeling so bloated and I love the fact that I don’t have to binge eat anymore. I use to binge eat when I drank so that I’d have less of a hangover or I’d eat greasy shit the next day to cure it…

    I have been focusing on running too and my health and that’s what has helped me remain sober. Being addicted to getting healthy? What can go wrong! We’re reaping the benefits of our new lifestyle. Love ya
    Jen

    Have a great day

  3. I’d like to lose 20 pounds. I need to get a new scale, my old one we tossed a couple months back after it bit the dust. But I’m game!!

  4. I’d like to lose 4kg (9 pounds). I have already lost about 5kg (11 pounds) since I’ve given up booze – yay! – but am still being a little sugar piggy too often (4 chocolate bon bons yesterday, naughty naughty). I exercise regularly but need to pull back on the food just a little. Sometimes I think I just need to give myself a break as I’m 40, have had 3 kids and have a naturally curvy (big boobs) body… but losing 4kg more isn’t excessive, would still have me at a healthy curvy weight with just a little less of the wobbly tummy action…

  5. Oh boy, can I relate to this one. I put on 12 pounds after I got sober. I blamed the antidepressant I was on then, but it was probably both. Then I started running and slowly started looking to food less for comfort. It’s been a slow process, but I’ve lost more than what I put on and I feel good about my body. Our bodies and brains are so used to alcohol for comfort and quiet, so we look to find it anywhere else we can. It will all sort itself out, so I say let you eat cake! And run and be happy in these other, healthier ways that you’re finding.

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