god and computers
This is the beginning of day 13 in my Dry July. And while yesterday was a shitty day, i made it through. in fact, the computer problem is slowly resolving itself, and the family illness seems to have improved overnight.
I subscribe to Notes from the Universe and on wednesday, when faced with the worst aspects of my dead computer, I got this message:
“If you knew I answered whenever you spoke to me, Belle, would you be still enough to hear me? Prepare to be amazed, [signed] The Universe. PS/And if you knew I was listening, Belle, to everything you thought or said, might we talk again like old times?”
I have to tell you this made me smile. I began to prepare myself for a miraculous computer recovery. Low-and-behold, when the new part arrived yesterday, i plugged it in (after leaving the machine off for 4 days), and … yes, it worked. it’s limping along a bit lop-sidedly, but it’s open enough for me to get access to my most important client files.
Now I don’t want to freak anybody out here, and i love and respect everyone. Really I do. but I don’t believe in god. I love and adore people who do believe, and one of my best friends for the past 20 years is an evangelical christian who often covers me in ‘angels’ when i go on car trips. To her, I say, bring on your angels, i can take all the help i can get. but me, personally? well, I believe in me, and the power that I have to make changes in my life.
that said, i kinda believe in the universe. does that even make any sense? i believe in some kind of shared ‘good vibes’. i believe that i create my own reality. me. me. but i also know that if i ask my husband to ask for better weather, then better weather arrives (for some reason it doesn’t work if I ask myself).
i believe in synchronicity, i believe in making your own luck, and i believe that sometimes – occasionally – the universe lifts you up. I got such love and support from the online community yesterday, that i think you’re part of my collective universe. that and a delivery of a computer part from Amazon, combined with a text from my sister that family is doing better… All is well this morning.
Thanks for being part of my universe 🙂